Hello again my silent ghostly readers :D I have an update on the drama thing in my life X'D
The dude (Shadar) has been silent for the rest of the week. The last time I heard from him was on monday. He said, he had been sleeping a lot and he would wake up by the time, when I would be on school or going to sleep... (there's only 2 hours shortage in the time zone but still it affects a lot)
Soo... I've been having fun and trying to improve my mental health. Yesterday was a fabulous day XD I finally felt like a normal human being. I hope this is a sign of recovery and maybe someday I can say proudly that I have defeated depression. Well I'm getting there one step at a time. Even my anxiety isn't as bad as it used to be.
I can't even express how happy I am for the fact, that I'm starting to resemble the old happy me and not the one that depression made me. It's just so wonderful feeling like yourself again. For a while I felt like I wasn't even a human... I didn't know what I was but it wasn't normal. Then there were also times that I felt numb or nothing at all... Sometimes I just wondered about feelings and what they're like... I still have some problems with certain emotions but it mostly contains my own emotions... It's funny, I understand other peoples emotions but not my own X'D
But yeah... I finally think I'm getting better and all... Well I guess we'll only see the results later and if they somehow will affect my things in here :3
Have a great day/night or whatever you're having my ghostly readers and stay awesome ;)
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