I immediately went to school with my pants and thick hoodies. I bought a large cup of coffee from the Exotic Diners and stayed outside our curriculum’s building. Nasa loob na ng kani-kanilang classrooms ang mga estudyante nang dumating ako. Nobody saw me though I was just sitting on the bench facing the building. Tinignan ko ito mula rooftop hanggang sa maliliit na hagdanan. I studied how intricately the exterior designs were made, and that it was the only building in AFA worth looking at for hours. Napansin ko ding bago ang kulay ng building, baby blue and hints of baby pink. But the doodles and the random paintings dominated still, like it really told everyone that the people in there are artists.
Artists huh, and you’re one of them slinthead, how’s that sound?
I stood up and took few steps towards the main entrance. I walked through the deserted hallway, turned left and slowly took the stairs to the fourth floor. Ilang beses ko ng naakyat ang hagdanang ito, but I never felt such nervousness as this.
“It’s really hard to take courage. What kind of courageous act is this?” I asked myself while walking in the lobby, thinking whether if what I was doing is right.
Okay slinthead. You’re doing the fucking right thing. Don’t hesitate bitch they were your ‘friends’.
“Find. Fine. They’re my friends. I don’t even know what that word means”
I leaned on the wall next to the door of my classroom, sighing every now and then. I think it wasn’t nervousness, I didn’t even know how that feels either. Maybe I acted like one because I still didn’t know what to do, what to say.
Time flew swiftly I did not even notice that it was already time for dismissal, ibig sabihin nun ay lalabas na sila. My few classmates who went outside first were very surprised to see me; in a big hoodie, with a large cup of Exotic Diner coffee in my wrecked hand. Tinignan ko lang sila at hinintay na lumabas sina Megan at Ashley.
Pero iba ang lumabas sa classroom, ang mga tao pang hindi ko gustong makita. Yvette and Samantha were giggling when they stepped out of the room but it eventually faded when they saw me and my deadly stare. I would still blame them for the incident, no matter how they insisted they didn’t have anything to do with it.
“Hey Jas, how are you?” Yvette asked; nervously and bitchy.
“Do I look like I’m fine?” I flashed a fake smile.
She just smiled and dragged Samantha along. That dumb girl never learned how to identify sarcasm. I rolled my eyes and leaned harder on the wall. Medyo naapektuhan tuloy ang mood ko dahil sa mga pagmumukha nila. But anyway, what’s taking them so long?
