Am i living a normal life.........?

My story

So hey there again. guyss this will be a part on my story and i will be writing this in my point of view. by the way I do believe in the quote above and I have realised the earlier you realise the truth the better it will be. I learnt this the hard way, yes the quote that I have put on top. I always believed that everyone is friendly and nice but know I know this world is full of fake cruel people. Pls read and tell me your point of view.....

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I learnt this the hard way, yes the quote that I have put on top. I always believed that everyone is friendly and nice but know I know this world is full of fake cruel people. 

i personally believe that you cant live life without having something to look forward to in life. living without hope is like living without your soul. but whenever i looked forward to anything in life it always ended very badly. i had many phases in life where i looked forward to many things but the consequences were really bad...........

when i was 15 i had realized that i was not living a normal life. i mean not normal at all. my grandma used to take me to school on train every day. i mean  come on it was embarrassing. everyone used to make fun of me and no one wanted to hang out with me!! i was named many names like scary cat, nerd and so on. every time i heard a new horrible name that i was called behind my back. i was breaking from inside. and the worst part was finding out even my so called friends were saying bad stuff about me behind my back. the friends i had believed were the closest to me had finally showed their true side just like everyone else. this wasn't enough. my grandparents hated me because i was born as a girl. they wanted a boy!! my older sister was a girl too but she got away with it as she was the first child. at this part of life i had realized that no one in this world likes me.. and to make all of this worse i always heard stories by my family that when i was born my grandparents wanted to get rid of me and my mum cried so much that She had another girl. She was scared to face the cruel society. And my dad didn't even want to see my face!! i  mean come on it wasn't my fault... now when ever i make a mistake everyone is always saying they should have just  got rid of me when i was born.. now i wish that they should have just got rid of me at least i wouldn't have to go through all of this.. every day i used to go to school get bullied and return home crying.. i would often lock myself in the bathroom and cry for hours and i would often get cussed by my parents. by this time i was mature enough to know that everyone secretly hate me.. also that i won't be able to do anything about it!!

After 1 year my grandma stated having problems with her leg and so couldn't take me to school any more.. so my dad finally was forced too let me and my sister get on the train to and back from school..i wasn't allowed to go anywhere other than school. but at that time being able to go to school without grandma was a major achievement. i was happy after a very long time and started to believe that i was living a normal life and  managed to make two new besties Alice and  Georgia.

 Then one day Georgia had a birthday party and she invited me. i was so happy but deep down i knew that my parents would never ever let me go. they don't let me go to the corner shop. i had realized that they don't trust me at all.. i begged them too let me go but they said no. my dad said he has to work so he wont know where i will be. i found that reason very invalid but i couldn't argue. that night i lay awake all night crying wandering why my life is like this and wishing that i close my eyes and never open them again. i just wanted to disappear from this cruel world. The following day i went to school and i told them that i couldn't come. they both felt really bad for me and then gave me an idea. An idea that changed everything, they said to run away from my house and attend the party. They said that the most my parents could do is ground me and I'm jailed in my own house anyway. i didn't like the idea at first but then i agreed. Because i knew my parents would never agree to let me go anywhere and my life is getting wasted like this. i don't own my life and i wanted to change that. i wanted to do everything that made me happy and this was the first party i had ever been invited to.I couldn't let this opportunity go.the party was on Saturday.. in two days... i was super excited..

Two days passed and i stood in front of the mirror with a glittery western dress on that was just above my  knees with black nights and a short leather jacket that i had begged my parents to let me buy. i stood there staring at my reflection and wandered was i really that  pretty. my parent main reason that they claimed was the reasons they don't let me go outside was that i am too pretty. my older sister doesn't have much freedom either but trust me she has more than me. my brother is obviously allowed to go were ever he wants whenever he wants. i  felt really guilty this was the first time i was going against my parents commands. most of the time no matter how much i disagreed with my parents views i always stayed quite and never said anything. but there harsh words always affected me even though i never showed it to them because it was pointless. i always cried for hours but never did anything about it.

my dad was at work and my siblings were in the garden. my mum was watching television downstairs. i quickly scribbled a note saying 'sorry Im going to the party. see you soon'. i left it on the top of my table and i escaped through the back window of my room and ran away through the backdoor!! i felt freed and happy even though deep down i felt super guilty. but i ignoring the guilt I got on the train to the party with a big smile on my face. i feared the consequences but decided to enjoy this party and not let my fear take away my happiness like I always did..

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So this is the end of this part for my story. thanks for reading. i hope you are enjoying my story. pls do read the next part to find out what happens at the party and the consequences Aalisha as in I face.....