Am i living a normal life.........?

My crush

So hey guys.. Hope u are reading my story and voting for me.. So this chapter is about the my first crush that made me realise what life is about.. 

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After the train scene I feared getting on the train every day to get to school. My sis started school at 9:00 as she was in sixth form. So she persuaded my parents to let her go late. But that meant that I was all by self. I feared the train station but didn't let my parents find out. But then suddenly everything changed. I used to take the 8:10 train to school every morning. Once I got very late and had to take the 8:18 train. I had never been late as I felt embarrassed to walk in late. As soon as I got to the train station. I saw him. He was standing there...... So cute... The minute I saw him I fell for him and I think he noticed me too. 

After that day I used to take the 8:18 train every day. Just to see him. I didn't have the guts to speak to him and he was quite shy too.. My dressing style changed and I started letting my hair down behind my parents back. Well my parents are so strict, they don't like me having my hair down and putting on extra make up.. But they were never awake in the morning. And the days they were awake. I left with little make up on and my hair tied but as soon I got to the corner of my house I opened up my hair and put on extra lipstick. Just for him. I was going down the wrong way and I knew it. 

But if my parents gave me the freedom to do what I want to my hair and apply make up.maybe I wouldn't have gone this extreme. But one of the main reasons my parents don't like me dressing up when I go outside is because of society. That they will come to my house and point fingers at my parents. I believe it is none of their business... Why does society have to be so judging, why doesn't everyone just mind their own business. This didn't happen long ago. It was just about a year ago... I was at the stage of life that guys started influencing my life. I started noticing them. 

This would have happened earlier to me like it did to everyone else but I went to a girls school and my parents didn't like the idea of me speaking to boys and they always kept me and my sis away from them. What made it even easier was that we had no older cousins at all. The only boys that were around us since we were little was my brothers and younger cousins. Yes I went to a mix primary school. But at that time I was really dumb and never hated boys myself and my parents would brain wash me about them. I always ignored them and never spoke to them. I had never ever been in contact with a boy in any way . But now life had taken a turn for me. He was the first boy that I had noticed. He made the whole of me change by just being there.yes the quote is true 'the more you try to hide your feelings for someone, the more you fall for them' and this was happening to me..  But unfortunately I didn't get to know him because life betrayed my once again. It wasn't written in my destiny to know him..

So as u know nothing ends good for me. He disappeared and I never saw him again. I Don't know where he went and I never seen him again. Once I left early and waited at the train station from 8:00 to 8:30. I missed train after train just for him. I had changed. I was never like this. but then I gave up. I took the 8:30 train and got to school. No one had no idea how sad and broken I felt and I didn't know how to express it. So I kept it inside me. The day passed and I arrived home from school, i ran up the stairs and ran in the bathroom. I sat on the flood and cried and cried. Why did life have to cheat me every time. Everything that made me happy was taken away from me. Either by my parents or by my destiny. I was an unlucky person and hated myself so much.

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Thx for reading. So guys this is the end of the chapter. Yes this is how it ended with my crush. I still feel so sad and really want to know where he went  and where he is right now.... But some questions are always left unanswered.....