The Little Ones

I Should Have

I sat in the living room with a hot tea grasped in my still shaking hands. My mother Lorry sat beside me.

"Okay, baby I know this is hard for you... but I really don't understand."

"I told you what happened." I muttered " you just think I'm mental." I blinked back tears "I should have never told you."

"Now that is not true." scolded my mother as she put a hand on my shoulder "I never said you were crazy, and you know you can come to me about anything." she twirled my hair with her fingers "Even evil spirit children." she smiled, I looked up at her tears streaming down my face

"Stop trying to make a joke out of this!" I slammed my cup down on the coffee table, ran up to my room and locked the door. I undid my tangled hair and looked at myself in the mirror grabbed the scissors on my desk... and began to chop it of "you're always in the way! I can't do anything with you! I hate you!" I shouted as I cut the last long golden strand of hair. I looked at my reflection for a long time

"Are you okay up there Jess?" called my mom from down stairs.

"Yeah mom... it's just a YouTube video." my voice shook as I looked at my uneven shoulder length hair. I let out a little sob then grabbed the phone and called Amie again.

"Please pick Amie, Please."

"Hello?" said Amie, my heart lifted at the sound of her voice.

"Amie thank god you picked up." I sobbed

"Oh my god. Did Erik break up with you?"

"What? no." I managed

"I just heard you crying I so I thought..."

"Amie!" I interrupted "Shut up!" there was a small pause "I'm sorry... I just really need you to be here right now."

"It's okay I'm here for you... always."

"No, I need you to be here... fiscally. like right now." I choked

"Okay, I'll be there soon just what ever it is you're dealing with right now take a deep breath and try not to think about it alright?"

"You have no idea how impossible that is." I muttered.