𝐖𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐀𝐃 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐀𝐍

Chapter 15

I feel like I can't breathe. I feel guilty and rude and selfish. How could I ever think that Loki and I were only friends? I knew there was something there but I could never put my finger on it. How could I be such an idiot? He was going to propose to me for crying out loud! Although he did put a spell on me so I wouldn't remember anything.

"Loki I-" 

"Ivy, it's fine, really. I know you will probably never feel the same way that you did before and that is fine. I have already started the 'moving on' process so-" he says but I cut him off just like he did to me.

"Loki shusssh" I interrupt him. "Please don't continue with the moving on process because the truth is I don't want you to. Ever since you came to my house the day you faked your death I had never been happier to finally have some company. I had never been happier that The God of Mischief himself had shown up at my door and had vowed to protect me from any dangers out there. I had never been happier that you could and can make me laugh and smile and feel safe when my whole life I had been sad and miserable knowing that I am the only one of my kind left and that I have no family because at times it felt like I had no one and at times-" I pause for a moment thinking about the pain in my past. 

I take a deep breath and continue. "And at times, I have wanted to obliterate myself, if that is even possible because I've felt so lonely and I've felt that I have no purpose because no one will ever love me. But Loki, whenever I'm around you, I feel loved, and I don't want that feeling to go away because it feels so good. It feels so good to finally be loved and cared about when I've been on my own for so long. And I know that the real me has probably only been gone for a few years but it feels like I've had to live seventeen years of my life all over again."

"Ivy you're not seventeen, you do know that right?" Loki looks at me and I didn't even realise that he had started crying. His pale skin is shiny and dewy from the fresh tears that have fallen from his eyes and seeing him sad makes me want to cry as well.

"Huh?" I ask confused.

"You're not seventeen. When I cast the spell on you to make you forget everything it made you live a life where no one would disturb you and you would feel lonely. Once you reached the age of seventeen which is the age you were when you put yourself in the coma, the spell is supposed to make you feel like you are seventeen forever. That's why it feels like you haven't aged. You're actually twenty-three, in human years that is" Loki says.

"I was in a coma for six years?" I look around the room until they find my hands and I sit there for a minute waiting for Loki to say something, but he doesn't. Suddenly, a question pops into my mind. "Loki, how do we break the spell?" I say as I look up at him to notice he was also looking at his hands. He opens his mouth to say something but shuts it just as quickly. He shuts his eyes tightly so that age lines form around his eyes and frown lines appear in between his eyebrows. "Loki?" I question him and I receive a painful sigh from Loki's mouth. He opens his eyes again and looks at me. I see his eyes dart around looking at my features. I then see a small curve in his lips form before it disappears.

"I know that this is going to sound really cliché- no, extremely cliché but there is only one way to break the spell" he says with difficulty.

"And that is?" I feel my chest tighten as I hold my breath and the grip on my hands around each other tighten as well. 

"To get married" he says as he looks down at his hands again.

"With you? You and me marry?" I ask intently. He nods his head and I bolt up from my spot on the bed and move closer to him. I grab his hands and hold them in mine and he shoots me a confused look.

"Then lets do it! Lets get married!" I say excitedly but Loki's expression stays the same.

"But you don't love me" he says. My heart drops at that comment. I suddenly know why I've been caring about Loki so much lately. I suddenly know why I care about him so much. I suddenly know what I've been feeling towards Loki, and that is love.

"Loki," I look straight into his blue icy eyes and they stare back into my brown ones. "I do love you. I wouldn't want to get married to you if I didn't love you. I feel I always have because I loved you before I forgot everything. Growing up again in the boring human life that I lived I knew somewhere in my heart I loved someone, not knowing who, but that's what made me so lonely. I loved someone, but they weren't there for me to love," a tear falls down Loki's cheek and he smiles the brightest most happy smile I've ever seen someone smile. "But now, hat person I love is here, and I'm never going to forget them again."

He pulls me into his chest and he hugs me like he's never going to let go. I can feel my shoulder dampening from Loki's tears dripping onto my shirt, but I don't care. I wrap my arms around Loki's neck and bury my face into the crook of his neck. I breathe in his scent, I listen to his heartbeat and I listen to his soft sobs here and there that are filled with joy. I hear a soft whisper in my ear; 'I love you'. And I simply whisper back; 'I love you too'. 

Saying those words make me feel whole. I feel like I've found my purpose in life now that I have Loki again. There are many people out there that I love, my mother, my true people, The Avengers because they are all my family. The people you the most are your family. But the person you love the most is the one you're dedicated to. The one you want to spend the rest of your life with. The one you want to start a family with. The love of your life. And now, I am marrying the person I love the most, not only to break my spell, but to spend the rest of my life with him and to start a new future. And I'm more than excited.

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OMMGGG THIS IS THE MOST CLICHE THING I'VE WRITTEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE I HOPE YOU DON'T HATE ME CUZ THIS IS SO CHEESY. ANYWAYS. I was originally gonna make this my last chapter cuz I didn't know how it was gonna turn out and I didn't really have any more ideas for this story, but now I think I might make another chapter because I have more ideas hazarr. 

also just wanna give you a heads up cause this is gonna be happening real soon but I'm also doing a prequel to this story so that you know what  Ivy and Loki's relationship was like and how Ivy was forced to put herself in the coma. 

 and tysm for over 700 reads!! I really appreciate it because this story isn't even that good lol. But also let me know if you guys want a sequel after I write the prequel...? maybe. That might not happen but if it does you will be sure to know because I mean obviously imma write it on here :). thank you guys for taking time out of your day (or night) to read my story and read my author's notes at the end (if you read them cuz I don't usually read them whoops).

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