Against His Wish

Chapter:- 34 What the hell is wrong with me...

Third person's p.o.v

They went near Radhika, Jane again warned Shivam not to mess any thing, to which he huffed and nodded.

Moving his hand behind her back to balance her,his other hand placed a soft pillow on headboard, He supported her to sit comfortably so stitches won't hurt, completely ignoring the fact that she was literally naked and her hands supporting the dress were trembling.

He turned his back towards them when Jane asked Radhika to remove her hands, she glanced at Shivam and relaxed seeing him facing the opposite direction. Slowly she loosens her hold and allows the dress to slip down her hands.

Jane started applying cream,after doing her job she gave Radhika some painkillers and covered her with blanket.

"You can turn now..." Jane told Shivam.

"But... don't do anything else... or else I'll..."

"Kick me out of this room...
I know..." Shivam completed her sentence.

Giving him a stern look she smiled at Radhika.

"I'll be back with your food till then take care... by dear..." Radhika smiled back despite her pain.

"What does she think of herself..." Shivam said once Jane left the room. He was quite intimidated by that old women, no one could tell that this sweet looking women can be so intimidating.

While he was busy blabbering with himself, Radhika was staring at him amused, was Jane really so intimidating if so then why didn't she felt it.

"What..." Shivam asked when she was staring at him continuously.

"No... nothing..." she replied slowly.

"Okay..." he slumped down couch and staring rambling through his phone.

Radhika's eyes felt heavy making her yawn and she closed her eyes.

Shivam was dozing off when his cell rang, he hastily picked up the call when he saw caller id.

"Hello... what happend...
Yes I'm coming just don't cry..." he hurriedly went towards door but stopped and looked at Radhika who was sleeping peacefully. As if his feet got it's own mind they moved towards her, she looked so peaceful and calm,it made something stir inside him.

He traced his fingers on her left eye which had a big bluish black bruise, then to those finger prints, which started to fade way, at last at her swollen jaw. It must have been very painful to her

He started leaning down and was about to kiss her forehead when a noice disturbed him. As if a spell was broken he jreked away from her.

"What... the hell is wrong with you Shivam... I should stay away from her..."

Shivam's p.o.v

"What the hell is wrong with me... Damm!" I punched hard on the wall outside room.

My behaviour changed from the night I found her on ground, when those guys were beating her up they were so violent.

I just felt like it was all my fault I shouldn't have listened to Xavier and left her there, but as always my anger overpowered it and I blamed her.

Thinking of that night my mind drifted back to whatever happend after that...

While sitting in hospital my mind drifted back to her and how we left her on that deserted road, don't know why but I just felt uneasy and sacred.

When Sam gained consciousness the first thing she said was Radhika, and then after slapping Xavier she started crying and begging us to bring her back.

Without wasting a second I went to search for her and when I did, she was beaten and battered, she looked so fragile that even a single touch will break her.

Going back to hospital and facing Sam was something I dearded. Looking at this bi... girl, I could have told that Sam would have killed me and Xavier, but she would have been more hurt then being mad.

After taking her to hospital Xavier called me asking her whereabouts, he sounded so worried and panicked after telling him about her. Without wasting a second he there in front of me, just looking at his face and his red puffy eyes, was enough for me to guess that he had been crying and something very bad happend.

I was about to tell him... but doctor came and told that she would get conscious after sometime, he went to her and statred crying.

Xavier cried like he did something very cruel to her, which he did and I had bever seen him crying so bad after he rescued Sam, while she was unconscious on bed.

His voice brought me back from my thoughts...

He was asking for her forgiveness,he was a crying mess. I thought leaving the room was best, I just can't see my friend so broken.

"Shivam... baby... dad... he's..." Amy said her voice was hoarse.

"What's wrong... love..."

"He... had an... accident... and now... he's in coma..." after that she started crying.

I asked my piolet to make jet ready and went to meet Amy...

After reaching the hospital. Amy was crying and her mother was consoling her, but strange thing was that Jack was nowhere to be seen, shouldn't he be here.

After consoling her and paying the bill's I went back it took me entered the room. Xavier was still beside her all the time and I sat on the couch.

She was out for two days He never left her alone. Sam came and sat with us but nurse would not allow her to strain herself more as she had to rest.

Finally she opened her eyes and when they landed on me, she was quick to gaze down then she looked at Xavier and started panicking doctors shued us outside.

Sam was going to get discharged but instead of going to their home, she told me that she want to stay with us.

She can't leave Xavier after facing so much, now she again wants to leave him alone, so making her understand I took her to room, where Xavier was sitting and talking to her i told him to get his shit together and solve the mess. He went with Sam.

I stayed with her but Amy's dad's condition was worsening and doctor's said that they would have to do surgery again.

So After helping that scary little nurse now I'm heading to meet Amy and will come back till midnight... but the thing which was bothering me more was my feelings and my behaviour, which has become more shitty. I myself don't know what I want and what should I do...