Troubled

Going Somewhere But Not Moving On

So, today's the day I fly to Arizona and begin my amazing new life at boarding school. Of course I'm being sarcastic, I mean what on earth could be amazing about this? I guess it's a good thing that I'm getting away from everything but this school will be full of people with issues; then again, I guess I'll fit right in.

Throughout the entire drive to the airport, no of us spoke. My parents sat in silenece while I listened to my iPod. All Time Low were really helping me right now, because if wasn't for the fact that I didn't want my iPod to get damanged, I would have probably jumped out the car while it was still moving. As you could tell, I was prepared to do anything to not have to go to this school.

Before I knew it we'd arrived outside East Midlands airport - which if you ask me, is the most boring of all the airports in England, I mean, there is literally nothing here - and my parents were already getting my things out the car. I continued to sit in the backseat, still listening to my iPod; I didn't wan to go anywhere.

My dad came round to my side of the car and opened the door, "Come on chicken" he said. He always calls me chicken, he has done ever since I was four, and now that I'm sixteen, he still calls it me.

"Come on, it looks like it's about to rain any second now and we'd rather not be stood outside when it starts" I removed my seat belt and reluctantly followed my parents through the sliding doors of the worlds most boring airport.

A few minutes later and an awkward silence came over us all. "Look, I know you hate us right now but just remember that this will be good for you, and that we love you very much" my mom said.

"Mom, don't be silly, I don't hate you! Ok, I'm not exactly happy right now but I'll be fine, you'll see!" I reasurred them both, but on the inside I wanted to scream at them and ask them why they were doing this to me, but I decided not to make a scene in the aiport - not that it would've mattered if all of two people saw me.

We then made our way to the check-in desk and that was when I realised that they had to leave, I wouldn't see them in who knows how long! I also realised that as soon as I went through to the terminal where I would be boarding, there was no going back and I was all alone.

I looked at them and began to feel an ache in my heart - I would miss them a lot, and they'd miss me too, especially since I'm their only child. They gave me thousands of hugs and kisses and then they watched me as I walked through to the terminal and just before I went through I turned to wave and saw my mom crying. I really had to try my hardest not to cry too, I wanted to hold on to any dignity that remained with me.

When I reached the gate where I'd soon be boarding my flight I noticed all of two shops and a bar - not that I could even go and get myself a drink as I wasn't old enough. I decided I'd sit down and just wait untill my flight was called.

I hate airports - the fact that you're supposed to be there a stupid amount of hours before you board your flight. It just so happens I had around two and a half hours before my flight.

I had no idea how I was expected to sit in this airport doing nothing for that amount of time so i decided to have a wonder. Ten minutes later I was back to my same seat; you couldn't exactly wonder round this place.

After half an hour of staring out the window at the plane that I would be boarding in around two hours time I decided that even if it was a long shot - maybe I'd give Alex a call.

It was ringing for what seemed like forever and then it went to voicemail, so I hung up and tried again. I got the same result the second time too so I decided... maybe it was best to just forget about Alex? I mean what sort of 'best friend' was he if he left me to deal with the.....If he left me to get over what had heppened on my own? At this point I was fuming, so I did what I had to do and deleted his number. The second I did it I regretted it but decided I could manage I my own like I had been.