Two Broken Hearts

(Ryan's P.O.V.)

I look at her brown eyes softening in my gaze. What happens next for us? We have to find out what to do about Adam. I'm not letting him use her anymore. Even if that does mean losing my job. 

She says "Ry, what's on that mind of yours?" I say "Lillian, he can't use you anymore. What happens after today?" She says "R, he won't, you'll protect me, I know you will. After this, we see how we go from there. Just don't forget our motto." 

I reply "I'll keep loving you and you'll keep loving me and the rest will fall into place." She smiles and laughs. I've loved that motto, not just because I found it and dedicated it to us, but because it is truly us. She says "What about our jobs?" I say "Should we pretend this didn't happen?" 

She says "No, should I make a scene?" I say "Lillian, that sounds merely perfect." She grins and says "Planning, my favorite thing to do when it comes to us." She used to plan out entire future together. She loved it. 

I loved watching her. She says "How should it go Ry?" I say "You could pretend to be hurt by me." She says "Oh Ryan, why'd you have to break me again?" and winks at me. I say "Perfect angel." 

She blushes at the nickname she's fond of. I say "Watch how he acts but don't let him know you are faking til I walk in on it." Knowing him he'll get her to come in his office and "comfort" her in there. Truly disgusting he is. She says "Ok my Ry." 

I say "So, you know what to do right Noelle?" She nods and tears up. I say "Lil, what's wrong?" She says "I just still can't believe he used me. Why is vulnerability a weakness for me?"

I say "Because your past Lillian has made you this vulnerable, fragile, broken girl. It has ruined you and no matter how hard you try to fix yourself, you can't. You, babe, are always gonna be vulnerable, fragile and broken. You just need to be fixed." By the time I end my statement tears are streaming down her face and her body is tight in mine, shaking with violent sobs. 

She's so fragile in my arms and I'm holding her trying not to let her fall and break into pieces. I say "Shh...shh baby." Her hands rest on my chest and I say "Lillian, guess what." She sniffles and says "What!" excitedly. My "guess what's" were always the thing to make her excited. 

I say "I-I l-love y-you." A hard kiss from her attacks my lips. I never said that to her, not even when we were dating, all because I didn't know I felt love towards her. She giggles and says "I love you, Ry."