Two Broken Hearts

(Lillian's P.O.V.)

His texts last words go through my mind on repeat. 

"You can read it or not, but I didn't break YOU. YOU broke yourself." 

I will break myself? M-my past is that bad to where I will break myself if I read it? What does he mean by that? 

I look at Noah's door and my heart breaks just for a small second. The second he will walk through that door, his hands are going to hold the one thing that is going to end up breaking me. 

Noah looks at me with a sympathetic look and his lip begins to quiver. I look at him and say "Scott, what's wrong?" He says "I just, I can't believe...how did this even happen?" 

As soon as he finishes his statement, Ryan walks in the door with a black spiral notebook in his hands. I look over the item as if it were the most sacred thing in the world to me. He hands it over to me carelessly as my fingertips run over the material beneath my fingertips. He walks away in disgust at me admiring the notebook. 

I open to the first page with a title of January 1st, 2014 and begin to read.