Two Broken Hearts

(Ryan's P.O.V.)

Tears stream down my face as I drive to the studio. I arrive and enter the double doors as I carry myself to her assigned room. I throw a blow to the wall opposite hers stained with blood and scream "What did I do now!?" 

My lips purse against the wall after I calm down and I hear my conscious say "She'll text you. I promise." 

My heart breaks. I don't know why she'll text me, just that she will. 

Shortly after, my phone lights up with 'My Fallen Angel' texting me. 

Lillian sent me a text. 

I look at it stating "Who is your Lillian and what are you hiding from me about her. I'm at Noah's when you want to talk, but till then I'm done." 

S-she's done? I was the one who was done. 

I text her "There are so many things I can't tell you." with my Lillian's blood coursing through my veins. She fires back "Why not? You are trying to make me her! Make me YOUR Lillian!" I reply "You want to be broken, traumatized, and destroyed, fine, I'll be there in 5 with the first journal she ever kept, you can read it or not, but I didn't break YOU. YOU broke yourself." 

I rummage around her room looking for where this girl...my girl...keeps her journals. I find a bookshelf and see different spiral notebooks lined up. 

Those have to be it. 

I pick the first one up and look at the date. Jan 1, 2014. 

Perfect, early in her youth and about to get to the past which will destroy her. 

If she wants to destroy herself, that's her choice, but I protected her. 

But if she's gonna read, she's bound to break again. 

Do I keep her from breaking?