CJ Pitts (A black veil brides fanfict)

What have I done?

CJ's POV

"That bastard!" Jake yelled from downstairs causing my eyes to fly open. I saw that my music was gone, my zebra blanket was covering me, and I was snuggled up with black veiled bear. Yeah that's his name. Jake must have come in to check on me. Suddenly my wrist hurt, I was about to look down but I remembered what I did before I grabbed my iPod. I started to cry again, not because of the pain but because of how much i have let jake down. I walked downstairs just to hear Jake get up and yell, "I'LL KILL HIM!!" and run for his keys. Just as he got to his keys I put my hand on his shoulder. He slowly turned around to see me. I must have looked awful, even more then usual. With my hair a mess and my face stained with my tears. He looked over my face then his eyes fell to my arms, my wrists to be correct, and how I had sloppily wrapped them with gauze. "CJ. Tell me what made you so upset that you would do this again?" he asked and I looked down at my wrists, looking for the right way words to say. "Come sit over here." ash said then patted the seat next to him. I sat and everyone gathered around me. I told them about how I walked in on Adam and Crystal kissing and how I reacted. I had to stop once but Jake had pulled me into his arms to calm me down. Once I was finished with my story, I started thinking about what Adam had said. Two of the words had been haunting me for years, "Fat" "Ugly", I don't really care about being boring but I have been bullied since I was 2nd grade about being those. It stopped for a bit when Jake found out about me being bullied in 4th grade. Once news got out that he wasn't living with me and our parents it started up again. "You know he's wrong, right?" Jake asked me braking me out of my thoughts. I looked up at him, questioning him. "Yeah, your like the most funny, crazy, and interesting girl I know." ashley told me giving me a big goofy grin that made me smile a bit. "Yeah, plus, you are now where NEAR being fat." CC added. "and your one of the prettiest girls I know. And if what's his name doesn't understand all of that then he can suck it and fuck off." Andy told me. "Always know that we are and always will be here for you baby girl." Jinxx said, calling me by the nick name they all gave me. "I know." "Now let's fix this gauze." Jake told me then led me into the kitchen. He washed my cuts and rapped them with more gauze, making it tight and thick. "Come on. Time for you to go to bed, little missy." Jake told me. I sleepily shook my head. "No, I'm not tired." I wined with a yawn. "You always say that but once you lay down your out like a light." "ok but can to tuck me in and stay with me?" i asked Jake. He thought about it then said that he would. "Can you play me a lullaby?" I asked once we were in my room. I love when he plays his guitar to lull me to sleep. He thought about it then when to get the guys. He said the song was called "Saviour". As Jinxx and Jake played guitar, CC some drum thingy, and Ash and Andy sang, I slowly fell asleep around the second corus. I woke up later to see that they all stayed with me. CC fell asleep at the end of the bed. Andy, the spot nearest to the side of the bed. Ash, my closet. Jinxx, fell asleep in a sitting position with his back against my desk. And Jake , in my super uncomfortable desk chair, facing me. I felt a smile creep across my face because they stayed for me. And fell asleep in the weirdest and probably not the most comfortable places for me. Aww what big brothers won't do for their baby sisters. I silently got up, found them some blankets and kissed the top of all of their heads. Then got back in bed, and drifted asleep again knowing that I was surrounded by people who love and care for me.