Because of John (Teen pregnancy)

Because of John |chapter 9|

When i was a child, i remember my mom being the most strongest woman i knew. she was raising 3 kids all by herself while carefully caring for the growing baby in her womb and still working full time at the hospital. my mom was my hero and if anything happened to her i don't know what I'd do. Today evan and i are going to get mom from the hospital and bring her home. the doctor said she'd been dealing with huntingtons disease for quiet some time and that in it was beggining to worsen due to her reaching her early 50's. Its so hard to see her just completely fall apart like she has. My heart breaks for my mother, she will never be the same. she's not gonna be able to play with her grandchild or meet evans daughter, valerie. she may not be able to watch me graduate in the spring depending on how the disease progresses. theres so much at stake right now, and being 16 and pregnant is hard enough. my whole goal is to make sure that i keep my stress levels low and my body healthy for my baby.

"so when is Charlotte gonna come to NC and see you and let mom meet your daughter?" i asked evan as we drove to get mom
"yeah, she's supposed to come soon, val is in K-5 so she can't just jump up and leave with her because she has school but she should be here for thanksgiving."
"cool, i cant wait to meet her and my niece, shes gonna have a cool little cousin" i laughed running my hand over my tiny bump.
"right" he chuckled
"evan..?"
"yeah? what's up, B?"
"D-does riley know..? like know about Valerie and Charlotte?" i asked. He didn't respond. i noticed his jaw harden and his hands gripping the stearing wheel so tight his knuckles were white.
"Okay so he doesn't." i noted, coming to this conclusion on my own.
"i don't need you to go around telling people blake. its my business, ill handle it when im ready. nows just not the time to be announcing that 'oh by the way, 5 years ago before i went to boot camp i impregnated a girl and didn't find out she had my kid til a few weeks ago' ill deal with it when i deal with it."
i shook my head and replied with a simple okay.

we rode the rest of the way to the hospital in silence. Neither evan or myself daring to even look in one anothers direction. i don't know what has gotten into evan lately but i don't like it at all.

we arrived at the hospital a little bit after 9am to pick up mom. she isn't as bad as what we thought she was. she can still walk and talk as usual but sometimes she will have brief spells where she thinks people are talking to her when they clearly aren't. so shes back to her usual self with the help of the lengthy list of medications she was given.

With thanksgiving in a little over 2 weeks and mom back home, im so glad we get to make thanksgiving dinner together like we always have.

I went to my room and laid down on my bed. i stared at the ceiling as i thought about how the last couple days had went. im very thankful for John and his coming back, i just hope he's for real. then i thought of Brody. We still needed to talk about our kiss and he needed to know that we could only be friends. i decided to call him and ask him to come over so we could talk.

my hands were shaking as his phone rang and when he picked up i completely froze.
"hey blake! what's up?"
"uhh.. h-hi. hey! brody hows, hows it going?" i stuttered like an idiot
"good, are you okay?"
"yeah im great. can you come over for a little bit please? i have math homework i need some help on it, i was wondering if you minded helping?" i know i lied but i know how brody feels about me and i couldn't just openly tell him what i needed because i didn't want to break my best friends heart.
"yeah sure, I'll be over in 10."
"great thanks. drive safe"

i sat nervously on the couch as i waited for brody to arrive. i bit on my fingernails as i went over what i was gonna say to him when he got here. i didn't want to break my best friends heart, but i didn't want to lead him on either. so i guess I'm really doing him a favor.

i heard his dodge diesel truck pull up into my driveway. i tried to hide my anxiety and kept telling myself 'you've got this blake. hes your bestie he'll understand'