A Broken Heart Tries to Fix its Self

Mathew still has feelings...

A few days past since the secret Mathew and Cindy made . Mathew had been wanting to talk to Elizabeth for a while now, to talk about why she lied. It was late one evening and Matthew texted Elizabeth and she actually answered which was a miracle since she would take so long to reply back. He tried to have her read a short story he made but her cousins wouldn't let her so he just got straight to the point he said

Mathew said "why did you lie to me"

she replied "what do you mean"

Mathew answered "do you remember the day I told you I liked you?"

She answered "yes why?"

Mathew said "Well the day before that I asked you if you liked anyone, then I ask you specifically if you liked that guy jack"

"Oh"

"Yea I just need to know why you did it"

"Well I didn't want to admit to anyone or myself so I just lied"

"Please forgive me"

"But I thought we were supposed to be best friends"

"Yea"

"Im not sad that you like him, im sad that you would lie to me, I would never lie to you, I will tell you who i like right now, I like Cindy"

" I just sometimes don't feel like I can tell people about myself and I kinda knew you liked Cindy, you two would be so sweet together"

Mathew is thinking to himself" I didn't ask what your opinion on weather we would be a great couple or not all I did was tell you who I liked" but he never text her that.
"Ok I just want the truth from you because it really hurt me when you lied to me, thats all"

"Im sorry :'( please forgive"

" I forgive you"

"And im sorry for lying"

"Your the best friend I have ever had I just didn't expect a best friend to lie to me but its ok I understand now why you did it"

"Thanks for forgiving me"

"I told you a long time ago that I will never leave your side no matter the consequences"

"If it makes you feel better i will tell you who I like"

"I already know who you like, after all jack is your boyfriend 😒"

"We broke up"

"Oh and you didn't tell me this till just now!"

"Sorry"

"Its... Its fine..."

"But yea who do you like?"

"Do you know a guy named Jose"

"Nope"

"Well he is in my P.E. class and advanced theatre"

"Then tell him you like him"

"Nooooo"

"Why?"

"Because I don't think he likes me and I don't want to get rejected"

"Yeah well then you'll know how I felt"

"Im sorry"

"Omgsh im sorry for saying that I didn't mean it"

"Still im sorry for the rejection"

"Its fine, really, I... I am... I am fine"

"Ok if you say so"

That shot right threw Mathew and he talks to himself in his head "Ok if you say so, Really that's all you have to say after all that, that's not what you are suppose to say after all that, you are suppose to say something like "Oh...ok... Again im so sorry." But Mathew knows he can't control what people do or say and so he just replies back

"You are the only one that i have talked about this to because you are my best friend and i tell my best friends stuff they need to know"

"K"

"Im sorry if you feel like im mad at you or something just know that im not"

"Its ok"

Then she says "I have to go to sleep" Mathew replies "Goodnight, and sweet dreams"

"Gn"

Mathew begins thinking in his head again " *sigh* I can't lie to myself anymore, I...I still have feelings for her...", He so badly wanted to say to her

"I would probably care and love you more than any other guy but you don't seem to notice it, and that's the thing that has been breaking me this whole entire time, it's that fact that you don't realize that no other guy can care about or love you as much as me, but you choose to ignore it *sigh*...,but I...I guess I will be...fine... I just have one wish, and that wish is that you would notice and I mean think about it a lot of how much i care about and love you, is that to much to ask, I mean think about it I have done so much to have you notice how much i care about you, I bought you a bracelet, I bought you a chocolate heart for you on Valentine's Day, I figured you would notice by then but you didn't,and then I started doing stuff with you out of school with you, and the most important part of all is that I listened to you, you told me about your life and I paid attention to how your life hasn't been so good for you, so ever since you told me, I told myself that I would make you happy no matter what, even if i was super sad or I was completely broken, I would hide all my tears and put a fake smile on to give you a real smile, if I were ever to lose you those tears would become visible and I would never again be able to hide them and I wouldn't know what to do with my life at that point... But at the end of the day I know I will never have a chance to be with you and that you will never care about or love me as much as I do you... But please keep all this in thought? Please?"

Mathew so badly wanted to tell her but he doesn't know how to again...