Is Change So Bad ( Evil Deku )

Remembrance

Izuku pov

"wow whats going on?" I sit up on the floor. "where am I?" I look around and see that I'm in my room at home. "huh?" I thought I was kiddnapped, I thought still confused." "Izuku, honey breakfasts ready!" my mom calls to me I stand up but before I can fully something runs past me with yellow ear? Wait what ? I stand up and go down the stairs and am meet with a sight I didn't think I would ever see or think of again. Its me and my mom at the table eating, while little me smiles so big and happy. how long has it been since I truly smiled so pure and happy like that, I think to myself feeling so sad at how I've changed. " I'm done mom can I go play outside?" "Izuku you know its dangerous." "please ill be careful I promise." His mom just looks at little him then he says, "pretty please with tons of sugar on top!" "fine go but be safe okay." "kay love you mommy!" little him says. I really wish I never went out that day, this day? ahhh who cares, he follows the himself into the forest watching as he gets lost in the forest. his younger self starts to cry cause he's lost."I guess I was always useless." I looks at the ground when a kid with spiky ash blond hair and red ruby eyes emerges from behind a tree. " hey what are you doing out here its dangerous?" kacchan says. I look at him and smile he was so young and pure at that time oh how he's changed. I grip my hand in a fist tightly and grit my teeth. " I'm sorry I got lost and I promised mom!" his younger self cries more. "its okay ill save you." he grabs my little hand and drags me to a cave. (I'm going to call little izuku Izu because I hate writing It out. > Author-chan) Izu looks weirdly at the cave. Oh my god the cave got did I forget about the cave."this is my fortress and you can come here to ummm.. whats your name? Im Bakugou Katsuki." kacchan lets his hand out for Izu to shake. He sniffles, "I-I'm Mydoria Izuku, thank you or helping me Kacchan." "oh ok If I'm Kac-chan the you are Izu-chan." "Okay" kacchan gives Izu his hand. "Come on lets get you home." "okay kacchan your my hero!" Izu gives his biggest smile. Kacchan just looks away and walks Izu home while they hold hands. " wow I forgot how we met, hehe it is such shame." then the world sorta blurs and it goes from light to dark to light again over and over until it show Izu and Kacchan just a bit older siting on top of the cliff that holds the cave. "Izuchan some day you will be my wife." kacchan says out of nowhere. I jump back flustered and blushing, " how am I just now remembering this. " I can' t be your wife kacchan I'm a boy." Izu says his voice showing his confusion. " I don't care Izu were going to get married." " ok kacchan." Izu smiles really big at kacchan and once again he looks away. soon there walking to the cave and they carve there initials into the rock. Oh how I missed this, I think while looking at our younger selves. "Why did I have to fuck this up so badly by being quirkless, " I say. Then it happens again the day goes in what seems like a fast forward. It goes to That day. I sit there from in absolute horror. Kacchan comes up to me, this is shortly after I figure out I'm quirkless, he says " hey izukun when are you getting your quirk?" Izu sits there looking absoultely traumatized. " I'm quirkless kacchan, what do I do kacchan we can't be heros together." Izu looks to kacchan waiting for some sort of awnser. " You can stay away from me DEKU." Once the words come out of his mouth he runs out of the forest. Izu sits there crying, " no kacchan why, Why kacchan?" I go over to myself and sit there next him. I can't even think of this as myself anymore. Izu died so long ago. I even dug a grave for myself in my backyard with, Here lies izuchan, on it.  But even after this dramatic day I still followed him hoping, Praying that one day he would accept me, accept my heart. I liked kacchan a lot but I was always to afraid of the rejection afraid he would tell me to do something unspeakable. which he soon did. killing myself hmmmm oh yeah thats how I got here I slit my wrists and I guess I'm watching my past life or I just passed out. 

"How will I ever be a hero?" Izu looks up and looks at me. what the fuck? " I don't wanna be a hero if they are all like this, they aren't true heros." I look at my younger self wonder whats going on when did this happen. " I might never be a hero but whats stopping me from being a villain, Huh? I zu ku." " Whats going on?" I say feeling overwhelmed and start to hyperventilate. " he has done so many bad things to me, to us, to YOU." Izu starts to go from teen to little kid. " we have to put a stop to his rain of injustice how can someone like him be a hero yet even Almight said you can't?" Yah why is that, no stop I can't think like this. " Everything he's ever done to you and you do nothing." then all of the things kacchan has done to him flash trough his mind. " No stop it. " I say while grabbing my head it hurts so bad why are they doing this to me. Why is kacchan doing this to me.  " I accept you fro what you are and what you want to become." then Izu turns in to Nightmare. " Mydoria I want to accept you for everything you are." He holds his arms open waiting for me to go in them I resist. " No stop please my head hurts no more?" Wait what this kacchan what are you doing he yells at him, "STOP!" Kacchan has mom, she then looks at me. "SAVE ME IZU-." kacchan snapped her neck and my mom falls to the ground lifeless, my quirk wasn't working I was to slow. no I finally get to her hiding her in my arms and start to cry. "NOOOOOOOOO!!!" I look at kacchan, "WHY? WHY DO THIS SHE WAS INNOCENT!" " Your so weak and useless Deku! Look you couldn't even save your own mother." Kacchan stands there and laughs. "YOUR SO PATHETIC!" He screams at me. " I WILL KILL YOU!" I scream then I  lunge at him and suddenly wake up." I Laugh and Laugh,"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH! ILL KILL YOU ILL KILL EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!" I look up and am in nightmares arms. "So you finally go off the deep end?" "Yup I smile widely, Thanks you." I hug him feeling truely free, I can kill kacchan with out a thought and kill all those who oppose me, all those stupid disgraceful fake heros. I feel truely blissful. He will regret laying a finger on my mother.