Is Change So Bad ( Evil Deku )

Loneliness

Deku POV

I sit on the roof looking out onto the city that I am one day to protect. The pills are already wearing off and I'm supposed to wait two hours before taking another one of them. The sudden emotions that falls on to my shoulders feels heavy, the pressure and stress I was feeling before come down on me like bricks falling off of a skyscraper. I've had these pills before and I know how to handle the weight a little better than now. 

The fighting resumes I can hear the screams of my emotions battling to see who arises on top, even though tomorrow it will start all over again. I stand up and look down to see the figures of small students walking past, they will one day be heroes and die just like hero. I sigh it's so sad to think that one day all the friends I know will become heros to just be killed by a villain or become old and useless. We only have so much time. There are so many students here so why do I feel so alone, I feel them walk past me and bump into me but it still like I'm in my own world or like the world ejected me to a confined hell to forever be alone. I started to feel this way when I was younger, when kacchan decided I wasn't good enough and started to bully me. I still feel worthless even at first all might told me I couldn't become a hero. I look around realizing I came to class how did I even get here. I look down and see water start to drip on to my desk, am I crying I reach my hand up and feel my face people are looking at me. Todoroki looks concerned but why he shouldn't be concerned by a useless piece of trash like me. Kacchan looks and scoffs, then looks away. He's angry at me again, no he isn't cause that would mean in a way he cares when he doesn't. I can't handle this I just can't, i have to get out of here. Without really thinking I stand up and push the window open, i jump out not thinking about how high we are. i land and hurt my ankle but i just ignore it. i can handle pain i've dealt with worst before.

Todoroki POV

Why is Mydoria just staring at his desk, he's not himself today. I look at his eyes they look so empty, I would know, I know that look more than anyone but he's the one that pulled me out of the darkness. I will save Mydoria from his darkness, I will protect him. My thoughts of protecting him are soon interrupted by Mydoria looking at me with those empty eyes, but now he's crying but why? He sits there for a moment looking terrified, then out of nowhere he just gets up and jumps out the window. Does he not realise how high up we are, I go to the window about to run after him when Bakugou suddenly jumps out before me and starts to sprint in the direction where Mydoria went. I jump out after him.

Bakugou PoV

I keep glancing at the stupid nerd behind me because something doesn't feel right, he hasn't been his cherry happy go lucky self today. Today he just looks so, broken. Whats wrong with him, even if i hate his guts i still worry about the little fucker. Ah shit i need to pay attention to class, i'll ask him what's up later or at least try to my mouth doesn't say the right shit sometimes. I just scoff at myself and look back at the board. Then i get another pang of, 'shits about to go down', in my stomach. i look back and deku is crying but why? whats wrong with him and then he looks at that half and half bastard. Why is he looking at him, but then his empty expression turns to terrified. He then just stands up and jumps out of the fucking window, what the fuck does he not realize how high up we are. i don't care what others think right now, because i am actually fucking worried about that dumb nerd. i get up and jump out of the window running after him. As i'm running after him through the streets and through alley ways, a person just jumps from one of the roof tops in front of deku knocks him out and jumps away. What's going on. i run after them losing them after a while. When i lose them, i stop and fall to my knees, i slam my fists into the ground and just scream " IZUKU!!" i feels so empty, like i just lost a piece of myself. OH My GOD why didn't i just admit it early, why do i have to be so fucking stubborn all the time, then i whisper to myself, " im in love with you."

Todoroki POV

I watch as Izuku goes out of sight, he's gone. i drop to my knees, "he's really gone." I get back up and just start to walk to a different alleyway leaving bakugou to himself, i don't think he even noticed me there in the first place. I go to an alley where nobody is around and just realise everything i felt in that moment. My ice and fire just start to go off letting it all lose as i cry and scream his name over and over again. "IZUKU! IZUKU! Oh where did my izuku go." i just sit there letting my fire and ice go wild.

Mydoria POV

I open my eyes feeling like i'm on someones shoulder feeling so tired, so very tired. before i shut my eyes i see something it looks like a, " a star." i whisper and then close my eyes falling into a deep sleep.

 Todoroki and Bakugou POV

" I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU, I WILL COME AND FIND YOU, my love" they scream while crying.

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