Daughter of the Devil | living in hell

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Again I'm looking into the dancing room filled with idols. There are mirrors everywhere and when I look to my right I can see Exo sitting on a black couch talking about something. Why are they not practicing? On my left side I can see Nct127 dancing to their song Regular.They all look so tired but that is the life of an idol right?

I'm walking around, looking if everything is alright and also showing new dance moves to the groups. Exo will have a Comeback called Don't Mess up my Tempo so I need to help them learn the choreo.

It hurts so bad! My leg is killing me but I need to dance. If I just stopped now the others would not be able to keep training and they need to do that so that they can perform better! It's all up to you again so stop crying around just because of a pain in your leg you stupid girl.

Again like the other days I trained all day/night long and I'm going to take a shower now. After that I should probably go around to check if the groups are training and having any questions about the choreography.

20 minutes later
Showering is probably the only thing, I do to just relax. It's so hard for me to just sit somewhere and do nothing.     I don't like being lazy and thinking about life so I just distract myself with work.

It is easier for me to just not think about anything and just dance. Dancing is something I really enjoy and love it is the most important thing to me in my life. Of course it gets annoying with all the others around me but I am used to it since I'm doing this every day of my life.

While walking to the dancing room again I think about the upcoming Comebacks and all the dances I still need to choreograph. It is too much but I just have to do it since I'm working here.

In the dancing room
No one is here so I think it's eating time for them. I don't really like food or eating because I don't wanna gain weight. All the girls look so pretty here and they are so slim. I will never be like them but what I can do is being in form and staying thin.

I love drinking tea and drinking water. For food I just eat Salads and maybe a Milkshake. Yeah I need to give that one to the Milkshakes. I don't know why but I seriously love them. The chocolate ones tho are the best for me. But that's the only thing allowed to eat!

They will probably come back in 30 minutes. Until they come I should probably sit down and do my homework. No I do not go to school but my father hired a teacher so that I know the stuff I should just like in school. Sometimes it gets too much beacause doing homework,learning,choreographing,writing songs, teaching the choreos and just help the idols here is hard to do at once.

If you think about it I don't do anything except that. I always hear things like"oh what are your hobbys" "what is something you wanna do in the future" or things like that and my answer is really simple. I don't have any hobbys or wishes. I just work that's it. To be honest I don't even want to do something else so ..

Suho coming inside
I start walking towards him so that I can talk to him. He is wearing a green cap and a yellow sweatshirt. If I am honest he looks kinda cute like that... ahh what am I even thinking about just shut your thoughts up Yumi.

"Suho where are the others?" He looks at me and starts talking."They are eating and will be back right after. Why do you ask?"

Shit it is not good if they eat because I wanted to let them train today." I just asked because you still need to practice and work out. So I hope you all don't eat too much becausese that would not be helpful. Tell me when all of them are here."

He just slightly smiles and says "of course if they are here I will tell you."

After that I just walk to the other side
of the room making my hair. I think it's better to have a ponytail today.
Walking around and thinking about my math homwork I still need to finish I hear loud noises.

I look at the back and see Baekhyun laughing loudly with Chanyeol. They look happy today I don't know why tho. What I notice is Kai. He is not laughing or doing anything he seems kinda tired but whatever.

Suho wanted to come to me but I was faster and walked straight to them. "You are not going to practice dancing today. I want you to work out so that you can learn to controll your breathing."

Chen looks to me and says "Why are we working out? I am too lazy today.ㅠㅠㅠ" I sigh "Go to the stairs and run up and down for five minutes. Sing while your running. This will be really helpfull for you guys so do what I say."

All of them look at me and go outside to the stairs. Just Suho looks to me and asks me "What are we going to do after that?" I just look at him and think. Should I just let them have a break so that I can help the others a bit more? " After that you can go to your rooms and do Push-Ups or something like that I don't care." He just nods and follows the other members.

Walking towards the door of "my father" Lee Soo Mans room
Only staff members and me are allowed to go here. Idols are not able to come here. I go inside seeing my father sitting in front of a big table. He is writing something again and I just want to go outside again but I need to give him the list of todays work.

"What do you want?" He asks not even looking at me ."The list" I say. He still don't look at me and just says " put it on the table and practice on your own. You need to be fit to teach the others. Go outside now!"
Just looking at him I could scream. Since the day my mom disappered we never talked normaly he really hates me and so do I.

I think he sees my mother everytime he looks at me and just ignores me. It is also hard for me looking at him and remembering the past but I just put these emotions to the side and walk outside of the room and start practicing again.

One look to the clock tells me it's 2am already. I should stop here, shower and go back to writing songs..

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So this was my first chapter^^ I'm really nervous and hope you give me some positive Feedback♡

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