Daughter of the Devil | living in hell

ten♣️

Yumi's pov

Still dancing and the party is on fire. Everyone is dancing, singing and just going wild. They all including me are having so much fun because it is lit here. It is also so funny to see them dressed up and the music is great.

But this is not the most important thing that is happening here. I am still dancing with Suho which is kinda weird because I don't usually talk to him. Only if it's for work but I am enjoying it right now and it seems like he too so it's ok.

His black suit looks so cool just like his red lips, fierce eyes and his brown hair. I didn't really realice that he died his hair lighter. It suits him so much and this hairstyle is also fire. His forehead is out so it looks so much better. Without them he looks cute but like that he seems really hot.

Damn what am I even thinking again. I just can't stop it definitly is the alcohol it controls me and my thoughts. I will regret thinking like that tomorrow I can feel it.

He looks at me and smirks then he says " Yumi you look beautiful today it is weird seeing you like this since you're always training."

I look at him and don't know what to say but just answer him with " What do you mean am I that ugly why practicing? Haha"

He looks suprised " Omg no I didn't mean it that way you always look good but today everyone is dressed up and I never really see you like that only on events so."

I just laugh and say " I was just joking it's fine thank you. You look also very good thanks to your costume"

Yes to be honest I am always practing so I never dress up just put on a Tshirt, pants shoes. They are definitly trendy but I just practice so I don't need to dress up really. That is kinda sad but it's my life.

Couple of hours later
I am standing here alone again . Suho went to take pictures they will later post them on Instagram on the official Sm site. I mean their fans want to see how they look.

They want to know that since they love them so much and adore them. The fans are the most important life of these idols.

It is hard to give them what they want. They always train and try to look as good as possible. Because if not there will be talking and hate.

It hurts them so much I saw so many Idols breaking down because of negativ comments. The fans probably don't know but the idols now almost everything what is going on the social medias about them.

As much as the fans know the artist will also know. If not the managers will know or even people like me who work in the company.

The fans want to be perfect even if they don't mean it in a bad way. They will tell them to lose weight, gain weight, dye their hair or have a comeback.

Almost like they are forced to do things. And dating... I don't even want to talk about that. The fans go crazy if their favourite artist dates someone. They will hate them give them so much hate and almost destroy their career. It is so painful to watch.

They can controle the idols in a way you would think that it isn't possible. Even if they try not to think about the hate or the negativity it gets to them.

It even effects me sometimes so I don't wanna know how it is. Yes I am under the control of my father and the company but I don't have people that belive in me or love me so I am not trying to proof them something.

I am trying to prove myself that I am worth living because if not I would be dead a long time ago. So I try to be someone that my mom would be proud of.

I see Suho standing there with members of Exo and Shinee. He looks like he has fun and is smiling so much. He looks over to me and smiles.

Suddenly I remember the dating scandals he could get if he would date someone. I mean he is from one of the most popular groups in korea. It would become the biggest scandal ever. They went through these things in the past and it was disgusting to see.

It was Baekhyun and Taeyon. And Kai and Krystal. The fans didn't want them to date so they just treated them like shit. Told them to die or to leave the group.

So they shouldn't go through things like that. Sm is really strict with dating someone. It is hard for the idols not to love someone.

I shouldn't even think about something like that. It would be impossible to date someone like Suho...

I suddenly feel someone walking towards me and I know that it is Suho and even if I don't want to I suddenly go away and leave.

I walk as fast as I can to leave this party. To leave Suho in this moment. If I bond myself to him it will end badly and I don't want any more drama in my life and I don't want to be the person who destroys his career. Everything he worked for.
He doesn't deserve that.

So I just leave the party and go drunk back to the Sm building.

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Yesss chapter ten is out. I am so proud because it's so hard to find the time to write but I love it so I hope I did well and that it is a good chapter. Hope you liked it.

Do you have any music recommendations? If so write it down guys. Ly all ❤