Daughter of the Devil | living in hell

twelve♣️

Waking up I feel sick. It is not normal anymore these days I just feel sick almost all the time. But I don't care still need to work so.

I take off my shirt and my sleeping socks so that I can put on my daily outfit. To be honest nobody would think that but I love dressing myself.

It is something that I love to do. I love styling myself and having brand names on. Probably something in my life that I do like besides dancing and music.

So this is my look:

After dressing myself I walk down the stairs to the dancing room and what I see is really weird. No one is around again like last time.

Why is no one there again? It is not evening eating time so it is kinda unnormal. I should just ask someone. Probably my dad he will know.

I walk towards his room and to be honest I really don't wanna see him today. After the dream of my mom I hate him even more for ignoring me and letting me go through hardships like this.

Seeing the door I feel tingles all over my body. It is always such a pain to see him. To be honest it is not even hate anymore I just don't feel anything good about him anymore.

I open the door and see him there sitting. He looks up to me and unlike all the other times or years he smiles at me. What is wrong with him?

It is not a happy smile but kind of a sad one? I never saw this smile after my mom disappeared. He did smile like that years ago.

I look at him and don't know how to react so I just say emotionless. "Why is no one in the dancing room? Where is everyone?"

He says " There is a big concert did you forget?" Oh yeah I forgot that completly. Omg how could I but it's none of my business.

I say "ok" and want to walk out suddenly he says " Do you know what day it is today?" Of course I know. It was my mothers birthday today.

But why would he talk about it what is wrong with him? So I just say like I don't know what he's talking about."Yes the concert. Sorry that I forgot about it."

He laughs in a calm way. "You know what I'm talking about today would be your mothers birthday. We would suprise her and give her presents. And..."

"I am not here to talk to you. I don't see you as a normal person or as my father so stop talking. We will never be a normla family again. Forget it. I should go now."

As I said that he just looks at me and I just walk out. What was he thinking he never talked with me like a person. Forget about a person today he pretended to be a "dad".

I don't know what he is trying but I will never forget about the time in that he left me in pain. And I am still in pain because of him.

He turned his back on me ignored me and lived his life as if nothing happened. He seemed happy while I struggeled and cried like a baby. There are no tears left anymore...

After a couple of hours

Today is boring there is no one to train with. I cannot teach them a choreography so there is nothing to do.

Tomorrow I need to dance with Exo again. And I should ... Omg the party how did I forget about that? This is so emberassing why did I dance with him ? What did I think about and I just left him there alone.
Damn so stupid like always.

Always doing the wrong things everytime. I make so many mistakes can't even count them. What will I do if I see him or what will I say. Do I even need to say something?

It is the best to just not talk about it and make everything like always because if not it will be awkward between us and I hate situations like that. I wouldn't have a problem with ignoring him but I hope he will not talk about it.

I am still sitting in the dancing hall and fuck I forgot to eat again.
I should probably go down and drink a coffee because if not I will probably faint again so a coffee would be good.

So I walk downstairs and see Bobby in the hallway. He looks at me and runs to me. Bobby suddenly hugs me and smiles at me.
"Hey Yumi. I missed you because
I didn't see you in a long time"
he says.

I look at him and it feels great to be with him again. It was a hard day since I thought about my mother and also about my fathers weird behaviour.

"I missed you too." I say.
He looks at me and asks me where I'm going.
"I am going to drink a coffee." I say and he just tells me right away
"I will come with you. A hot coffee would be soooo good right now why not."

So we walk together to drink a coffee. He talks about his concert and how amazing and fun it was and also why he stayed in the hospital. He said that he was not feeling so well but now he is fine that is great.

We just talk and talk and I start telling him about my dad.
" Do you know what my dad did today?" I say and he just looks at me and says " What did he say?"

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Chapter twelve is out guys I am loosing hope to write but I love it so I just kinda do it. I hope you liked it because it is hard to think about what to write next. Ly all❤