Promise you won't leave...(Nick and Jojo)

Part 13

Jojo pov:
I woke up and had to change the bandage again because it had already bled through. My head hurt like hell, but I still got up and left the bathroom after I cleaned up all the evidence and got dressed again. Nick was standing in the kitchen and turned towards me. 'Where were you? I was worried shitless, Jojo.', he said coming over to me, trying to hug me. A picture of what happened before flashed in front of my eyes and I pushed him away. I looked at the floor, clearly ashamed. 'Are you alright, Jojo?' 'Sure, just tired.', I lied,'how did it go with Aileen?', I said monotonous. Nick was clearly confused because of my behavior,'It was fine, she's a great kid.' I smiled faker than ever. I was astounded that I hadn't even burst out into tears yet. 'I'm tired, I'll go to sleep.', I said and lay down onto the sofa. 'Goodnight.', I said to Nick and fell asleep a moment later.
'Come on, boy.' The voice. The moaning. The pain. It was back. I tried to move, but I couldn't. I tried to scream, but I couldn't. I tried to fight him, but I couldn't. His face. His hands touching my skin. His penis inside of me. His kids, sleeping in the room next door, not knowing what's going on. My tears, dripping onto the floor, just like my blood. My muted cry trying to escape my mouth. My weakened arms pushing him. I saw him again. I saw what he did to me again. Every detail. It hurt.
'Oh god,Jojo, wake up for christs sake', Nick shook my shoulder. I sat up quickly, breathing heavily, sweat dripping down my face. I was shaking heavily. The first rays of sunlight shone through the window. I put my arms around my knees and burried my head into it. I started sobbing out loudly, tears falling down onto my pants. Nick sat next to me, trying to scoop closer to me, but I was still shocked and cried,'Get away from me. Get away.' Nick didn't listen and hugged me. I pushed him away from me and kept saying'Don't touch me.' Nick took my head into his hands and made me look at him. 'Hey, Jojo. Look at me. I won't hurt you. Please, don't push me away', he said, pulling me into a hug. I realized that Nick wasn't 'him' and I just let him hug me. I felt so weak and destroyed, I didn't even want to bother fighting Nicks hug anymore anyway. It was very uncomfortable for me. I just couldn't show him my affection. It was hard for me to let him hug me. 'Jojo, what is wrong? I heard you screaming 'Don't touch me!' and found you, obviously having a nightmare. What was it about? Was it about your uncle?' I shook my head. He let go of me and sat next to me to put his arm around me. I was still sobbing, sweating and shaking. 'Jojo, what happened to you?', he asked, moving his head closer, but I just moved mine away to create some distance. 'Nick, please don't', I whispered sobbing. He let go of me and moved away, he seemed to understand what was going on, at least a little bit. 'Jojo, ever since you were babysitting yesterday, you've been behaving so distantly. What happened to you? Please, Jojo, I am so worried about you right now.' I just sat there and stared at the floor, tears still falling down my face. Nick took my face and made me look at him, again. He whiped my tears away. 'Jojo, I don't want you to cry. You are too beautiful and amazing to be sad. All you deserve is happiness and joy. But you aren't happy right now. I'm begging you, please tell me what happened to you. I'm right here for you, no matter what. I'll do anything to help you.' I shook my head, still sweating, some hair sticking to my temple and forehead. 'Don't care about me, Nick, please. You are just wasting your time. You can't help me. It's not your fault, but you just can't' 'Jojo, if you haven't noticed yet, I really care about you and I really like you. Please trust me. Please don't push me away.'

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