Promise you won't leave...(Nick and Jojo)

Part 16

Jojo pov:
As we arrived at Nicks flat, Stella was still all over Nick. Bitch. We entered and the girl straight up sat down on the sofa. 'Just that you know, we have to go to school tomorrow, so you'll have to leave early', Nick said, slightly annoyed by that girl. The girl just nodded. She wanted to go into Nicks room, but he just grabbed her wrist and stopped her. 'Uhm...actually, you'll have to sleep on the couch', Nick said and looked at me. 'But that's my..', I started to protest, but Nick interrupted me saying,'Jojo and I are sharing my bed so you'll have to sleep on the sofa, if that's okay with you.' I looked at him in confusion, so did Stella. She also looked kind of sad/pissed because of what he had just said. I was still standing there, drowning in confusion. Not just because of the sleeping place problem, but because of Nick in general. That boy just confused me too much for my own good. Since it was already pretty late, Nick said goodnight to Stella, who had already gotten comfortable on the couch. He slightly pushed me into his bedroom. I shuddered and pulled away again. Then I followed him quietly. He closed the door behind me, sat down on the bed and sighed. 'I'm so sorry for today. I noticed how much you suffered. I shouldn't have brought you there.' I just nodded an'It's okay.' 'I am also sorry for making you sleep in my room but I do not want to sleep in a room or even worse in the same bed with a girl that is all over me. She is so annoying, geez.' I looked at him, 'So you don't like her back? I mean she's a pretty girl and all and I'm sure you'd be a great couple', I said, the jealousy was clearly noticable in my voice. Nick laughed and said,' Stella and I are really not more than friends...Well at least from my perspective...Well, I'm not really interested in girls. Actually, I'm not interested in them at all. Boys are way more interesting.' Wait what? He's gay? What? No way! 'So you are..',I said astounded. He laughed again. I would lie if I said that his laugh wasn't hot as hell. 'Yes Jojo, I'm gay. I'm just not usually telling people about it. Actually, only you know now.. and my parents.That's why they threw me out...' He sighed. 'What? Seriously? I'm sorry about that.' 'It's okay. I'm out here living my good life whilest with them I would've just suffered.' I sat down on the bed, I had moved the 'bed' for Aileen into Nicks room while Stella was getting ready before. So I put the sleeping cutie into it. The 'bed' was placed on the Nicks bed which was really comfy, by the way. 'Do you want me to sleep on the floor? I don't want to make you uncomfortable or anxious. 'No, no it's okay, I guess. I mean I trust you.' 'Thank you for trusting me, Jojo', Nick said.
He slowly got up again and pulled off his shirt, walking towards his wardrobe. It made me quiet uncomfortable, firstly because it made me think again but on the other hand secondly because he had an amazing body. I stared at his abs and muscled arm. I blushed a little when Nick turned his head and caught me staring at his body, but I just couldn't help it. He was so...perfect. Unlike me, his ribs weren't showing unhealthily and he didn't have any cuts on his body. I was just a piece of shit whose body would never be stared at by anyone because of the ribs and cuts and scars and weak arms. I was just a fucking mess. I quickly excused myself and went to the bathroom. Not worth it. Not pretty. Not enough. I told myself while cutting eight deep cuts into my left thigh. I sighed relieved when I felt the pain I deserved. I got dizzy and almost passed out again, but I didn't. I cleaned and bandaged the wound, then I cleaned the evidence and washed my face, that turned a little bit pale after cutting. I put on sweatpants and an oversized hoodie and went back into Nicks room.

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