CoD Oneshots & Imagines/Scenarios

1:34 AM

*holds chest, to where the heart is* Will I ever get better?

Nikolai: "Maybe... Maybe not"

What do you mean?

Nikolai: "You are talking about the pain of losing a loved one, no? A sibling perhaps... I know this pain too... With my wife... I don't know whether or not it gets easier... But, I do know that it is hard not to blame yourself... But blaming yourself does nothing but keep you in the same exact place, you will never be able to get even just a little bit better if you continue this"

I know... I've tried so many times to stop.. But I always keep doing it...

Nikolai: "Im afraid that the wound in your heart, that has been made by this event, will never heal... Especailly if you keep how much it hurts all bottled up inside.. You need to talk to someone..."

*chuckles* yea.... Tik Tak has told me that already... I get tgat I need to.. But, opening up makes me feel so vulnerable to getting hurt again..

Nikolai: "You need to learn to be able to trust people sometimes..."

Wait... You're here right? I trust you!

Nikolai: "Im sorry, but, I meant with real people... Like Dempsey had said, we are just fictional characters.... And that, is that" *fades away*

God damn it.... *tears start to fall down*