Maybe {Logicality}

Month seven (Logan's POV)

I woke up to all three kids and Roman running into my room and yelling at me to get up. Imaj jumped on my bed, trying to put my glasses on my face. I gently took them and put them on myself.

Then I pulled a blanket over my head.

"Come on Lo-Lo!" Imaj said, tugging on the blanket, "Its Christmas! Get up!"

"Come on Microsoft nerd," Roman started. He was wearing a white shirt and red Christmas pajamas with crowns and Santa hats on them. "Virgil cooked breakfast and he promised there would be Crofters!"

"I don't feel well," I mumbled from under my blanket.

The kids 'aww'ed in disappointment. Roman had a look of confusion on his face.

"Um, kids, why don't you go see in Virge needs any help." Roman said.

Missy and Pranks nodded and left. Imaj followed soon after, but not before saying, "Get well soon!"

"Okay, what's the real reason?" Roman asked as soon as the kids were out of earshot.

I shrugged, not wanting to talk right now.

He sighed and I felt a dip in my bed, "it's about Patton, isn't it?"

I didn't respond.

Roman groaned, "at least go out and eat something."

"Hypocrite." I mumbled.

That shut him up.

I sighed, slowly sitting up, "you're underweight again, aren't you?"

His silence was my only response.

"Roman, we've been over this before, you can't just-"

"And why can't I!?" He yelled suddenly, "everything is spiraling out of control! I can't save Patton! I couldn't save Missy! I couldn't protect  Virgil! The only thing I can do is not eat!"

I was quiet for a moment. Shocked into silence from his outburst. Did he really think that? I hung my head.

"It won't be the same without him..." I whispered, "There's no sugar cookies this year, no gingerbread house. Did you know he baked those by himself? He sings to himself when he cooks. And one time he was too nervous to try a spell out of a spell book, so he asked if I wanted to become a dog. Whenever you come home unconscious, he always takes extra time to make sure you'll be comfortable. He was the first one Virgil opened up to and spoke to. He went back for Deceit in the cave. He wouldn't leave him behind. He cares so much about everyone. He found depression in the imagination, it told him it needed a friend. It tricked him into releasing it and told him to... it told him to hurt himself."

Roman gasped at that.

"It locked him in his room for a week before I came looking for him." I continued, "His arms were awful. He told me he wanted to die..."

Tears started rolling down our faces.

"After he found you passed out in the bathroom, vomiting blood, you promised you wouldn't go underweight again. It terrified him that he would find you like that again. Now it's quiet and things are all going wrong. " I looked up at him, "It's not the same without Patton."

Roman lunged at me, wrapping his arms around me tightly and sobbing into my shoulder. Broken sobs. I would be lying if I said I wasn't crying too...

"I-I'm sorry Logan," Roman said, wiping away his tears.

"For what?" I asked, slightly confused.

"For Patton. For not eating. For fighting Dragon-Witches. Heck, even for ruining your shirt!" He cried,"I'm just... I'm sorry..."