The Fantastic Five: Carson, Milo, Shawn, Jace, and Abby

Milo's (Almost) Death

 Abby:

I run over to my car. Danny is chasing after me. "Abby wait please stay!" He pleads. "No! I can't stay! I have to go help Milo!" I say. I open the door to my car and Danny stands right in front of me with the door blocking our path. "You never answered my question! I just poured my heart and soul out to you and you're just gonna leave?" He asks. "Yes, Danny. I do still love you. I will always love you. But I can't love you the same way I used to. You ended it with me because you didn't want me to go live my dream!" I said. "You basically exchanged your family, friends, education and boyfriend for fame. I have a right to be upset." He says. "Danny, I'm sorry that I didn't stay just to accommodate you. I'm sorry. I really am. I'm sorry I broke your heart, but right now, you aren't helping the situation. I have to go help Milo. He's hurt right now." I say. "So you'll just jump up to go help Milo but you won't stay and be a girlfriend to me?" "At least Milo was there for me when I needed him! You were there for me when I had something for you! Goodbye Danny." I say. I get in my car and drive off. Danny looks mad and goes inside. I wanted to cry and scream at the same time, but I couldn't. I had to be there for Milo. If Milo dies, it's on me. I instantly burst down in tears. We shouldn't have come here. I should've made this a solo mission. I wish it were me. I wish the car accident last year killed me so that this wouldn't have happened. If Milo dies...screw Hollywood or the show or explaining it to his mom....if Milo dies...I will never forgive myself. If Milo dies...so will I. Pieces of me were already dying just thinking about it.

Shawn:

It's like the car wreck last year all over again. We're in the waiting room at the hospital praying that Milo will be okay. I could've ran faster. I could've pushed him out of the way. I could've saved him. I wish it were me. I feel so guilty. We shouldn't have let him wander off on his own. We could've saved him. We could've done something. If Milo dies, it's on me. Abby bursts through the door looking like she just cried a river. She was still crying. We get up and walk over to her. This is the first time we've ever seen her cry. Abby's not the type of person to lose her composure in person. "Where's Milo?! Is he okay?!" Abby tried to say in between tears and "trying-to-catch-my-breath" moments. "Addy! Hey!" Carson was tried to hard to calm her down. She was trying so hard to calm herself down. It wasn't working. Whatever else that happened with Danny after we left to go find Milo was obviously contributing in whatever was going on with her. Addy started tightening her grip on Carson's sleeve. "Carson..." She tried to say. Her crying and breathing was slowing down, Carson pulls her into a hug and tried to tell her Milo was gonna be okay. Suddenly, Abby started closing her eyes slowly. She started falling. "Abby!" Carson yelled to her. She picked her up and laid her on the couch. I guess she passed out. We had no idea what happened. "I'll go get a doctor!" Jace says. He runs out of the room and starts yelling for someone to come help. A nurse runs into the room and over to Abby. She checks her pulse and looks relieved. She stands up and turns to us. "She's okay. She's alive. It was most likely just an anxiety attack." She says. We were all confused. "Anxiety?" I ask. "No, no, no. Abby's not the type of person who has anxiety attacks." Jace says. "As far as you know?" the nurse asks. We were all stuck. We didn't know what to say. Did Abby suffer from anxiety and we never knew it? If so, how much is she really hiding about her mental health? So now I have 2 things to worry about. Abby's health and Milo's life. This is so my fault. If Milo dies...so will I.

Jace:

This is the best day ever...not. Milo just got hit by a truck and Abby had an panic attack because of a mental illness no one knew she had. Abby finally wakes up while Carson, Shawn and I are talking. We're trying to keep our minds off of Milo. If we think of him, we instantly fear for his life. This distraction isn't working. At least not for me. This whole thing is my fault. I let Milo go. I could've ran to him faster. I wish it were me. If Milo dies, it's on me. "Is Milo okay?" Abby asks behind us. She's finally awake. We all run over to her and help her sit up. "Are you okay?" We ask her. "Yeah, I'm good." She says. "What was that whole thing?" Carson asks. "What?" Abby asks. We all give her a dirty look. "Did I pass out?" We all nod. "Oh..." She says. She looks guilty. "You wanna explain that?" Carson asks. She looks guiltier now. "When were you gonna tell us you have anxiety?" Shawn asks. "Um...never. That would mean you would have to hear the stories." She says. "Is there anything else about your mental health you need to tell us?" I ask. We all are pretty mad she never told us. She takes a deep breath which means there is more to the story. "I have anxiety, depression and bipolar disorder." She says. We're all shocked. "How come we never knew about this?" Carson asks. "You were never supposed to see. I didn't want you to see all the things that are wrong with me." She explains. I can agree with that. I'm the same way with my anxiety. If I weren't famous, I wouldn't want people to know either. "Is Milo okay?" Abby asks. I'm sure she's thinking the same thing I'm thinking. If Milo dies, it'll be her fault. It's not. It's completely mine. I didn't make a good enough attempt to save him.If Milo dies...so will I.

Carson:

This whole thing is killing me already. If something happens to Milo, I will never forgive myself. I was the closest to him when he stormed off. I could've stopped him. I could've saved him. If Milo dies, it's on me. We're still in the waiting room. Waiting. If something happens to Milo, screw us, his mom will be so heartbroken. I'll be responsible for killing 2 people. One physically and the other mentally and emotionally which could become physical. One person I thought died in my arms, but it turns out she's secretly had anxiety this whole time. "Guys?" Abby asks. "Yeah?" I ask. "What's gonna happen to Milo?"She asks. I look to Shawn and Jace. They look stumped. "He will be okay, Abby." I say. "If Milo dies, it's on me." She says. We all look at each other as if that's what ran through our heads too. It ran through mine multiple times. "No, it's mine." I say. "I was the closest to him when he ran off. I could've stopped him." "No, it's mine. I could've ran faster to him." Shawn says. "No, it's mine. I could've pushed him out of the way." Jace says. "No." Abby says. "I shouldn't have let you come." We all look guilty. At that moment the doctor walks in. We all stand and face him. "How is he?" Abby asks. The doctor looks disappointed. I look over at Abby. She looks horrified. She knows. "Come in and say your goodbyes." My heart dropped. I guess so did Shawn and Jace's. Abby's shattered. You can see it in her eyes. Not because now she'll have to stay in IF because The Waynehood Diaries is over, not because she believes it's her fault, not because she knows she'll have to look his mom in the eyes and say Milo died, but because she knows she just lost her day one best friend and someone you could tell was someone she really cared about. Maybe even loved. Milo's dead...soon...I will be too.

Abby:

In the hospital room, Milo is laying on the bed with a cast on his arm and his leg, his other arm is cut up and so is most of his face. He looks peaceful. My heart is now officially broken. I thought saying goodbye to the living was the worst thing in the world. No. Saying goodbye to the dead is. We all walk over to Milo's bed and say our goodbyes. Shawn steps out. You can tell he was 3 seconds from river tears. Jace was on the bridge of it. Carson was already there. I had to keep my composure. If I let go now, I'll pass out again. I keep a solid face. Carson walks out and Jace follows. That's when I let go. I burst down in tears. "Milo...please...please come back! I need you! Not for TV but because you're everything to me!" Nothing. "Milo...I love you." Nothing. I lay my head on his arm. Then I hear something. It's beeping. It's the heart monitor. Milo's alive? I gasp. Milo then starts trying to gasp for air, I get up and run out and call for the doctors. The doctor who told us he was dead runs in and so does Carson, Shawn and Jace. "It's a miracle! What did you do?!" He asks me. "I...I didn't do anything." I say. "Well whatever just happened, you saved his life!" We all laugh and smile. Carson pulls me into a hug. It was a huge relief. My best friend didn't die. Thank god.