The Things I'll Never Get To Say

#25

When I'm upset,

I shut myself down.
I have no motivation for anything.
I tell myself that nobody cares, even though I know that some do.
I think about all of the negative things I could possibly think of.
I give myself all the pain, because I truly believe that I deserve it.

I'm not sure why I do that,
but that's just how I am.