Boarding School : Stan Uris

chapter eleven ; me and stan are adorable

chapter eleven: me and stan are adorable 

"where's my mind, maybe it's in the gutter, where i left my lover" ( bellyache, billie eillish )

june 1989 - remalenn's pov

Honestly of be lying if I told you that the point was the scary part was the plunge. I was more scared of a boy whose hand was gripping my mind while I was screaming the whole way down the jagged cliff, or maybe that was him? We were spiraling down in a free fall. I knew it would be funny, he would be angry but all the losers would be laughing along with me. So why was a joke making my stomach spill butterflies?  

With Richie beaming with insults and laughter from on top of the cliff the rest of the boys giggling along. Millions of words escaping through my mouth before we hit the water. I will call going under dramatic. It was cold, but not in a bad way. The weather was hot and it felt refreshing like a really need to wake up call. I also felt my hand separate from Stan. Feeling slight panic.     

Pulling myself up immediately, I looked up towards everybody else. Doing a quick 360' I saw Beverly waving at me, I smiled gingerly waving back. Finally, I saw Stan pull his head up. Shaking out his hair, turning toward me smirking. I'm usually not one to say anything but my best friends are all boys truthfully none of them are ugly. Yet, none of them looked like Stanley Uris right now.

One by one, they dropped me yelling something different every time. Once everyone was fully emerged out of the murky water we started swimming out a little farther, to get a feel of the water. We made our way in a group formation around to more shallow ground right near a collection of rocks and the cliff.

I felt like the sun beaming into the water, splashing, and an assortment of giggles was a blur. A really, really fun blur, up to that point the jokes are coming and I was laughing at the moment having an amazing time with people who I wanted to spend my summer with.

I steadied myself on the shallow ground pushing back my long hair. I began to fix my bra and undies that felt uncomfortably bunched. You gotta do what you gotta do. Most people would think to wear almost nothing around a bunch of boys would mean Beverly and I were confident. Except that was a lie on my part. I was feeling chubby; my thighs are way too small, I used to like them this way but I was feeling skeleton-like, just like you can feel my ribs sticks out if you felt my stomach. Hoping nobody would notice the obvious. I continued to sink down into the water.

I rejoined the conversation when Ben Hanscom tapped my shoulder, "Yes Ben?"

"Richie wants you to play in the chicken fight he wants to have!" He explained.

I nodded swimming toward my brother and away from the boy. Ben never did anything to me personally and I did hope my reaction at the drug store didn't scare him too much, but I wasn't that comfortable with him like the others. I would open up soon.

Richie's voice broke the silence, "Okay there are seven of us, so who wants to be the ref...?"

I was about to speak up, wanting everyone else to have a good time but, Ben raised his hand before I could. "You guys get in teams, I'll declare winners!"

I dove underwater towards Richie, when I came up Eddie squawked, "Nope, not two Tozier's. It's not fair!"

I yelled back, "Cause' we have superiority over you losers!" Laughing at my shorter friend, Richie and I slapped hands.

"I'll take Lenny!" I heard Stan speak up, I turned around slowly. Nodding in approval, I felt my cheeks heat up.

Bev swam towards Richie and Eddie, pulling Bill behind her, "Me with Bill, Richie and Eddie, and Remalenn with Stan!"