you know,
I feel bad
For myself.
Because
I actually thought I had a chance
With him
When the truth is
he liked you.
And I was stupid to think that I could be the one.
And it's very embarrassing
That I talked to you about how I like him
While you and him were secretly admiring each other
Leaving me foolishly saying I want him to stay in my life.
But it's very embarrassing for me
That I was talking about all of this
To you
Who he likes more.
and I feel so stupid
To actually think
I was the only flower he could pick in his garden.
When beside me,
Was a much more beautiful flower
That he deeply loved.
And that's why I was scared
To tell him how i feel
And to become closer with him
Because I knew something was going to happen between two of you
And I knew I was going to be left behind.
And gosh,
How stupid of me
To even talk to him about my feelings
When deep inside I know he doesnt really care
But he talks to me just because he feels bad.
How stupid of me
To talk to him about my feelings
And to tell him how much he meant to me
When secretly
He was with someone else.
But I knew.
Deep inside.
Everything was a domino.
I knew that I was going to fall for him
And that he would fall for you.
Because there are no chances of a domino
Falling for the one who fell for it.
But rather,
Fall for the one next to it.
And how dumb
That i still hoped
That the domino would fall back.
So I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for everything.
You must have been very annoyed about me talking about him
And he must have been annoyed with my whole existence.
I'm sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
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11-5-18
11:51 pm
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