here we go again,
back in this carousel
so close to each other
yet
so
far.
i thought our goodbyes
were the end of us
but why am i back here?
on this ride?
hopelessly chasing love
with you?
you.
why is it that i always come back to you?
my heart was broken so many times
yet you are the reason
that my heart manages to skip beats
when i see you.
i'm hopelessly in love with you, i know.
and i'm being foolish because i know you prefer someone else.
but i can't control myself.
i knew that if i looked at you,
i'd fall for you again.
because the truth is
I never really let you go.
late at night, i'd think of you
and i'd ask myself
how are you doing?
are you fine without me?
are you happy?
without me?
but you.
you were at every corner i looked at.
you appeared in my life even if i didn't want you to.
you showed your smile when you looked at me in the eye.
you cared for me even if i said
you hurt me
even if i said
i didn't want anything to do with you
even if I said
i hate you.
but no,
i didn't hate you.
i never did.
i wanted to.
but i never did.
and i don't think i ever will.
because
i loved you.
and gosh, i loved you so much.
and i love you now
once
again.
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8-23-19
12:14 am
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