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They say someone won't be better
if you give them fake applause.
Being this old, I'm still innocent
about this; wish to minute-pause.
November was between a good friend
and an amazing enemy to me.
It ain't a best friend to my life either.
It ain't a big nemesis for me to bother.
Did you know I became a master of
the ceremony? And I was scared.
Did you wonder why I have refused
to run along that path? I'm scared.
I didn't know the letters m and c
when they were beside my name
'cause I was scared to ask.
I didn't want it.
I can't say no,
although I want to.
I didn't want it.
I want to say no,
but I mustn't say it.
I had a past of talking about
introducing people
and greeting people
and calling people
to come up.
That's why I was there, at your front,
and you had me convinced.
But I said I had more to do, didn't I?
I wanted to want this; I really used to.
But I'm really sorry; I didn't want to.
Draping my red hood around me,
the mirror smiled at me.
Picturing people sitting at my front,
I will talk about this, and me?
I will be winning
for that was what I thought
I would be doing.
You had my eyes--I beg thy pardon--
and you convinced me so well.
You had my yes--I beg thy pardon--
and I thought I could do it well.
It had been my dream that turned
into a nightmare.
I didn't win that dream for my dreams
are different from this.
It took nearly a month to realize that
that one ain't a bliss.
Now, I reckon my eyes are bloodshot;
I'm sorry if with this, your head'll be hot.
I didn't want this.
I can't say no,
although I want to.
I didn't want this.
I want to say no,
but I mustn't say this:
I beg thy pardon--I won't be able to teach
them people how to applaud to that piece
of mine.
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Finite Infinitives
Poetry𝙁𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙄𝙣𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙨 ╰ a c o m p i l a t i o n o f p o e m s ╰ c o m p l e t e d "I haven't done everything I want, but in the realm of reams, I already did some."
