The bathroom scene was a fucking mistake. After my orgasm, I ordered him to leave. He was so confused. Akala ata niya bibigyan ko pa siya ng blowjob. Well I admit I was about to do it. Then I remember that we were betraying my brother and my heart clenched.
Isip muna bago libog, yun yung naisip ko.
I regret it. Okay well, slightly hindi. But it doesn't change the fact na mali yun.
After niya umalis, I showered and changed into a spaghetti and cotton shorts. I proceeded downstairs.
Kuya was there, drinking a cup of coffee. There were bags in his eyes. I felt my heart ache but I put it aside.
"Okay ka lang Kuya?" I asked.
Tumingala siya sa akin at ngumiti sabay tango.
"I'm fine. Coffee ka na." He said.
I nodded and prepared my coffee and a couple of pancakes.
I was preparing our pancakes when I heard someone coming down. Of course it's Jacob.
"Good morning Jake." I heard Kuya say.
"Good morning."
The coldness in Jacob's voice was visible. How's the feeling of having blue balls?
"Jake, about last night, I'm sorry."
"Nah, it's okay Brent. I'm sorry. Bahay mo 'to and then-"
"No, no, Jake-"
"Okay lovers, breakfast's ready." I said and interrupted them.
I felt Jacob's gaze but I didn't mind him. All the memories came running back to me and guilt invaded my system. Ang bobo mo talaga Lila!
"Haaaay. What I need is just my baby girl's food." Kuya smiled.
I smiled back at him but the voice inside my head was still there.
"I'll prepare more coffee." I said.
"Nah, I've had enough. Maybe Jake..."
I looked at Jacob and he was staring intently.
I raised a brow.
"Black coffee?" I asked.
He nodded his head. He never changes. I still can't figure out why he likes black coffee. Maybe it reflects his personality.
I returned with his coffee and he and Kuya seemed to be okay again. I was happy. Nothing matters more than my Kuya's happiness.
Sana naisip mo 'yan bago ka nagpakain sa boyfriend niya, the voice inside me said. I groaned.
"You okay baby girl?" Kuya said.
I just smiled and nodded my head.
"Kuy, I'll probably go mamaya." I said while sipping my coffee.
Jacob doesn't stop looking at me and I want nothing but to get his eyeballs out. He's not making this easy.
"Sure. Sino kasama mo?"
I shrugged.
"Baka si Joseph."
"Nako, iisipin ko na talaga na may relasyon kayo ni Joseph." Kuya chuckled.
"What?" I glared at him and he raised his hands while chuckling.
"What? A brother has to say, you look cute together."
"Joseph Nadua?" Jacob asked coldly.
"Yup. Kilala mo 'yon Jake?" Kuya asked.
Tumango si Jacob. Of course. He's the one Jacob hates. Jacob hates his guts. Whenever I'm with Joseph, we always end up in a fight. He's jealous of him and I don't understand why.
Seriously? He's way more handsome and hot than Joseph.
"Bagay sila ni Lila 'di ba?" Kuya smiled.
"Kuya, magtigil." I hissed and he just laughed.
"I'm not his biggest fan." Jacob shrugged.
"Well you should get used to him. He'll be someone's boyfriend." Kuya said.
"Brent, don't push your sister." Jacob said.
"What?" Kuya chuckled. "Lila never got a boyfriend. It's pissing me off na naunahan ko pa siya."
Jacob clenched his jaw. If only you knew Kuya. Ako ang mas nauna sa 'yo.
"Or maybe you don't like guys-"
"Kuya!" "Brent!" We uttered in unison.
"Geez, okay. I'm kidding." He laughed. "Seriously though, you should find a boyfriend. You're a one hot piece of ass, baby girl. Wala man lang ba nagkakagusto sa 'yo?"
"I'm not interested." I said plainly.
"Imposible. Andami mo sigurong boytoys. Nakikita ko mga messages and chats mo. Why don't you send them a reply?"
"Seriously Kuya? It just means wala akong paki sa kanila." I rolled my eyes.
Kuya just laughs and Jacob was silent. He was holding the utensils too tightly na namumuti na yung knuckles niya. He also keeps on clenching his jaw.
"Kaya pala hindi nagkaboyfriend. Suplada e." He teased. "Siguro kapag nagkaboyfriend ka baby girl, siya na yung pinakamaswerteng lalake sa mundo. Ikaw pa ba e ang ganda mo, sexy, matalino, responsable, caring tsaka masarap pa magluto."
"Nambola pa." tumawa ako, pero natouch ako sa sinabi ni Kuya.
"Nah. I'm serious. Kaso lang mawawalan ka na ng time sa 'kin. Kaya dapat ipakilala mo sa 'min 'yan ha. Para tatlo na kaming lalake sa buhay mo plus Dad."
I smiled at Kuya's cheesiness but it doesn't remove the ache in my heart. I want your boyfriend Kuya. I don't want anybody.
"I'm full." Jacob suddenly said.
I shrugged and also stood up. Sumabay na sila ni Kuya umalis sa dining when I offered to wash our dishes.
Pagkatapos kong maghugas, naabutan ko sila ni Kuya. My heart ached at the scene. This is where they belong. Jacob was sitting and Kuya was lying on his lap and they were watching a movie, probably Netflix.
It was indeed Netflix. It was Love, Simon.
Jacob suddenly felt my presence and he looked at me. Sadness flashed across his eyes and I think mine reflected it.
I smiled sadly at him. I'm sorry Jacob. I'm not gonna push my happiness if it means Kuya's pain.
I went up to my room and I entered his number which I can still memorize. I knew he didn't change it because he's been calling me for months until three months ago. That was the time he and Kuya got together, according sa sinabi ni Kuya nung isang araw.
"Jacob, let's end whatever this is. You and Kuya deserve each other. Kuya deserves to be happy."
Sent.
He called immediately like I expected. I rejected it and blocked his number.
