Helping you - BTS Jungkook x Reader

Chapter 8 - I Trust You

Here we are, in a situation I never imagined I would be in.

He holds me as I cry, pouring out all the feelings I have bottled up for years. I hate that he is seeing me vulnerable, but it's also comforting knowing that he is there for me even at the hardest times.

"You don't need to tell me anything you don't want to, but know that I am always here and I want to help you."

I can't believe that he hasn't run off after seeing part of the mess that is my life.

"T-thank y-you. No one h-has ever s-seen what goes on I-in my life, b-but I think I c-can trust y-you." I blubber out.

He looks at me with a sympathetic expression, "Thank You, I'm glad you know you can trust me. You don't need to tell me everything now, take your time. I will wait."

This hits my heart, hard. No one has ever been there for me before, it's strange but such an amazing feeling.

[...]

I manage to calm down and Jungkook puts some soothing cream on my red cheek.

He is so close. My heart is racing, why?

I feel his warm breath on the side of my face as he leans in to rub the cream in.

"All done." He says leaning back.

I kind of wanted him to stay a bit closer...

"Thank you." I whisper.

"Don't worry, I am prepared to do everything I can to help." His smile makes my heart flutter.

Talking about some of my life is reshreshing. I feel like a massive weight has been lifted. There's still a lot more he doesn't know but he won't push me to tell him straight away.

[...]

Jungkook asks me if I will be alright and I told him I would as my dad won't be back today.

Convinced I would be fine, Jungkook left and I was left alone.

Vodka or whiskey?... Both.

As I open the bottles I pour myself some of the vodka first. Taking a big gulp I feel the familiar burning sensation as it goes down my throat.

[...]

I check the time. 5:00 am.

I normally go to bed around this time so put away the alcohol and get ready for bed.

Crying makes me tired, so as soon as my head hit the soft pillow my eyes shut and I fell fast asleep.

[...]

I stir to the sound of my alarm clock.

It's a Sunday. Luckily, tomorrow is an inset day. (Basically you don't go to school tomorrow.)

My heart lifts when I remember that I am going to meet Jungkook, Yoongi and Tae.

I decide to kill some time by scrolling through instagram. Suddenly, I get a notification: Momo- Stay away from Jungkook and the boys. The don't like you they only pity you. You're pathetic honestly. Just kill yourself. Oh wait, you already tried. You should try again slag.

Dark thought immediately enter my messed up head.

Is it true? Does he really just pity me? She's right, I should just kill myself. What am I even doing here?

She went to my old school. I tried to kill myself and the news spread quickly so my family moved away, not because my dad cared about me - because he didn't want the police to ask why I tried to kill myself incase they found out he abuses me.