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The ride home is eerily silent and not something I'm enjoying. As it goes on I'm itching for it to be over or to at least find out what is causing this uncomfortable atmosphere.
I decide to break the silence, "Hey, Kookie is there something wrong?" I try to sound casual.
"No, everything's fine." He says bluntly. He's trying to stay calm but I can sense the frustration he's unintentionally emitting.
"Please Jungkook, talk to me." I plead.
He sighs before answering, "Fine, but wait until we get back."
Deciding not to push it anymore I return to the window waiting for this excruciatingly long journey to end.
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We arrive back at his place and we enter still not talking to each other. I keep stealing glances at him but he's unreadable.
"I'm going to get changed into something more comfortable do the same if you want, then meet me in my bedroom in 5 minutes." With that he walks away.
I go to my room although I sleep in Jungkook's more and look through the wardrobe for something comfy to wear. It reminds me of how lucky I am to have Jungkook, he saved me from my father and that horrible life.
I end up shoving on some short shorts and a very baggy jumper over the top, which goes down to just above my knee.
As I trudge towards Jungkook's room my mind swirls, trying to prepare myself for the worst case scenario.
What if he wants to break up or he doesn't like me anymore? Or what if he wants to kick me out?
I tell myself these are stupid thoughts and I should know better than to think he would do that to me, but I can't disregard the small amount of doubt in my mind.
I knock before entering and when I get no answer I use my initiative and assume it's fine to go in. As I enter the familiar room I see Jungkook just sitting on the bed, he looks as if he's in a trance.
"Hey." I say timidly.
He gestures for me to sit next to him so I do but I try to stay far away, still aware of the worst case possibilities.
"Ok, so I want to talk to you about something." He begins. My heart races more and my nerves build up.
I lightly bite my lip from the nerves.
He takes a deep breath before starting, "Ok, you know more than anyone that I don't want to force you into anything you feel uncomfortable with, but sometimes I feel like you still see me as a friend." His words shocked me.
Here I was worrying about how he views me that I didn't even think he would worry about how I feel about him. I'm so selfish.
Speechless I attempt to get some words out, "Jungkook, I definitely see you as more than a friend. Why do you feel like that?"
"I mean, I understand you feel unsure of doing some things but we are at that age y/n and we've not even kissed properly. And it's not only that just little things as well." I'm shocked. I feel so guilty, my heart aches, I'm such a terrible girlfriend.
"Jungkook, I'm so sorry." I lower my head.
"See, even things like that." Confusion breaks up my guilt for a second as I don't understand what he means, sensing my confusion he expands, "even things like calling me Jungkook, like I get you call me Kookie sometimes but you never call me babe or baby or anything like that."
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