A little place for love

Chapter 4

Rye's POV :

"MIKEEEEEEEEEEY !!!! Omg you NEED to tell me about last night!" I yelled at my best friend as he was walking in my apartment at 2pm.
"Gosh calm the fuck down Ryan"
"Are you for real you promised me you would spend the weekend with me, then you end up going to the club because I don't want to because I'm absolutely not in the mood for that and then you don't even go back home at night and you expect me to be all calm and waiting for you ! Huh I think the fuck not ! " I wasn't mad at him at all, and he perfectly knew that I was just acting like that because I wanted him to tell me all about last night . But instead he changed the subject to something a lot less funnier.
" I will tell you all about last night when you will tell me what's happening with you. Because clearly something happened, you are always a ball of energy and happiness Rye, and right now you're just a depressed mess ! I am worried about you! " said my best friend of fifteen years with a sad face. And I knew I had to tell him, I knew I had to get it of my chest. But I also knew that it was hopeless and that no one could help me, not even Mikey.
" I don't even know why am telling you that. But you're my best friend and I don't want to lose you. So here's the thing : You've probably seen me kissing that girl on every fucking magazine, and you probably wondered "why the hell is my gay ass best friend kissing a girl ?!" . Well my manager strictly refuses me to come out of the closet as you already know. And he thought that the best way to have everybody think I'm straight was to find me a girlfriend ! So here I am !" I explained on the verge of tears.
" Oh don't cry sweetheart, I am here for you" he said taking me into his arms.
" I know but I want to be able to love someone the way I want and to love them openly. But I just can't and it makes me so fucking sad."
"That's it ! I'm taking you to that club tonight and no discussion!"
" But Mike you know Blair won't let me go to a gay club !"
" I don't give a fuck ! You clearly need to get your mind of things and we are doing it my way. Plus, I hooked up with he hottest dancer last night and he is also working there tonight. And the bartender was exactly as you like them: blond, blue eyes, twinky and sassy"
I knew that once Mikey had an idea, it was impossible to get him to change his mind. So I guess tonight I would be surrounded by hot boys trying to drown my sadness into alcohol and sex .
And deep down I knew it was a bad idea but I missed the anonymat and ephemeral side that the night allows you to taste for a brief instant before you have to confront the aggressive light of reality.