A little place for love

Chapter 7

Andy's POV

I woke up feeling perfectly well. And I started my morning routine, when I was done I took my guitar out of it's case and started to play some. As beautiful notes where escaping from the wood made instrument I felt myself slowly completely drifting in my bubble. I was now in my universe the outside didn't matter anymore, no one besides me existed. It was beautiful and just filled with the music coming out of the guitar. But all of a sudden the bubble broke into pieces and I froze knowing exactly what was wrong. I started crying because I knew I couldn't do anything about it. Yes, it was there, again. The felling of emptiness, that felling that was telling me that I needed love, not just within my family but romantic love, the kind that makes you feel like you are floating on a cloud and that you can fall anytime soon and the crash on the ground but you just take the risk because the felling is so amazing and blow minding. That kind of love. My body and soul were craving for it but I wasn't able to allow myself to feel that. It was well to dangerous. I couldn't let my heart be broke in half a second time. The first time almost killed me, a second would end me.
So I decided that it was time for me to spread my wings and fly away from home. I was going to start my carrier. First, I needed a producer. I knew that there was one agency in town so I took my car and drove there. I hadn't forgot to take my guitar and all my songs with me of course. I wasn't naive, I knew that they would probably not even like me but I guess the only way to be certain was to try. Once I arrived there I went the reception and ask if there was an application I had to fill out. They said yes and gave one to me telling me that once I was done I had to give it back to them and that they would call me in about a hour. So I did as told. Two hours later (honestly I was expecting them to be late ), a guy came to me. He was very tall with blond/grey hair and I'd say he was on his sixties.
"Hi Andrew how are you ? My name is Tom Robinson, I don't know if you've hear of me but I'm a pretty "famous" musician even if I don't like to use that word. But I decided that it was time for me to take a step back from the main stage and help new artists." He said introducing himself to me.
"Wow sorry I didn't recognized you, I love your music and also really appreciate the fact that you're an openly gay artist in this homophobic industry." I responded clearly impressed to have one of the most popular British punk rock musician in front of me.
"Hey it's okay don't be impressed I want you to relax, this is all about you. I want you to talk to me about your music, your inspirations and that does music mean to you. Okay ?" He asked.
"Yeah of course no problem."
We walked to a recording studio, in the control room there was two chairs. We sat down and I started to explain to him how important music was for me and what type of music I liked. Tom also asked me if I knew how to play any music instrument and I responded that I had taught myself how to play guitar.
"Well, all of this seems amazing but now I would like to hear your voice." The man told me.
I went to the recording area and placed myself in front of the mic. And I slowly felt that wave of adrenaline invading my body. I started to play the first notes of one of my songs, it was named "the end" . I felt really emotional singing it in front of that man that I admired so much because I wrote that song after my last relationship ended and it was really painful to let all the emotions come out like that. I hadn't sang that song in about a year and the half and it woke up a pain that I had buried deep inside of me for a long time. It was finally time to let go and start a new chapter in my life. Those were my thoughts at the end of the song.
"Wow I'm impressed that was amazing. Andrew I want to produce you ! I know I don't say that very often but I feel like you can bring something new to music, something true. And the music industry clearly craves that right now." Mr. Robinson said to me.
"Really ? Oh my god that's just amazing ! Thank you so much!" I responded all exited, but then I remembered that I needed to tell him that I liked guys. Because even when I knew that he was gay himself and that he wouldn't mind, I felt like he just had to know. "Just before we sign anything it just wanted to tell you that I'm gay and that I'm not planing on hiding it."
"Okay no problem son but just get ready for all the hate you're gonna get and the fact that your carrier will probably take more time to take off." He explained to me.
And I just felt ready for it. I didn't wanted to share songs filled with real emotions and then fake-date all those girls. I wanted to be the real me, to be able to truly inspire people and not feel guilty because I lied to them.

Hi guys sorry I haven't posted in a while but things have been so crazy and I just haven't had time. But I'm back. So as you can guess Rye and Andy are gonna meet quite sooooooon. I'm so excited for it to happen. And yes I'm going to talk about Andy's last relationship later on because it's actually gonna explain a lot.
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