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he found out my secret. goddammit!

It's been three days, three days! And in those days I didn't do anything, except from the fact Hayden always comes over. And sometimes he stays for dinner, and I hated that!why? Because I'm not eating for god sake!

Why am I like this?

Was Hayden the reason why I got into eating disorder? Or my appetite is just gone? Yeah! Hayden wasent the reason...I hope.

"So Annie aren't you eating?" My dad's voice drags my out my thoughts, I mentally roll my eyes at them. I never eat in dinner and my parents are starting to realise that.

And that's scaring me.

"Uh no I actually ate at lunch" i said and looked up at Hayden quickly not wanting him to say that I actually didn't eat. He seemed to get the hint but raises an eyebrow at me, I shake my head.

He can't know, not now anyway. It's to early, we only started dating like a week ago? I don't even remember! I'm really annoyed at my self though, because I try to eat i really do.

But I just throw it up later.

So I don't bother eating what's the point when you know your going to throw it all up later? Yep! No point.
"I'm going to go upstairs, y'all finish a eating".

My mum nods her head and my dad just doesn't seem to notice what I'm saying, I shrug and walk out the dinning hall. Walking up the stairs towards my bed room,I open my door and close it behind me and sit on my desk chair.

"Hmmm..I need a new song"' i mumble to myself thoughtfully. What should I write it about, depressing? Show how I really feel? Or a fun happy one?

OH MY GOD!

How about both? Depressing but happy! I mean there's always a good in a bad day. Yes! I'm going to do that...but what's my lyrics. Ughhh!

I start writing not really thinking.

Every thought is a battle
Every breath is a war,
And I don't think I'm winning anymore-

Ugh!

I can't think of anything,I scramble up the paper and throw it in the bin which didn't get in. I groan but don't bother getting up, it's to much effort.

As I was about to make anthour lyric my bedroom door opens, and in comes the curly haired boy! He smiles slightly, as I sigh.

I kind of wanted privacy but mkay.

"Hey Ann's can we talk?" Oh no! I know how this goes. The boys says can we talk and I say sure then he starts blabbering about how Amazing you are and you get annoyed and he shuts up and gets to the point.

And the point is a BREAK UP!!!

Is he going to break up with me? No! Why would he it's only been a week for god sake....I mean he could still break up with me. Okay I'm overthinking it now! "Uh yeah sure come in".

I get up and sit on my queen sized bed patting it next to me so he can sit down. And when he does the small smile he had is gone and now a serious face is on, okay yup his breaking up with me.

Just great, because I needed that.

HEY! I CAN MAKE MY SONG ABOUT IT--

Okay I'll stop.

"So?" I say looking up at him as he just stares down at the floor, I wait for him to reply as it all goes Silent.
Well ecxpet my sister of course!

"Okay listen why don't you eat anymore" he says pretty quickly, woah! I thought he would make it easy but he got straight to the point.

I was actually taken back for a second as I stare into his brown eyes, I bite my lower lip tilting my head at him abit, "What? Are you crazy I do eat!"

He shakes his head breaking eye contact,his clearly disappointed. Well I'm sorry my stomach doesn't want to eat why are you disappointed? "Don't lie to me Annie, it's pretty clear you don't eat and everyone has noticed."

I shrug my shoulders holding back the urge to roll my eyes, if they noticed why don't they ask instead of talking about it to someone else. Now that's the type of people I hate!

"Fine.." I trail of looking down at my fingers like it's the most amazing thing ever, I fiddle with my fingers and sigh. "Fine! I don't eat! I don't eat are you happy? I told you! I think I have-"

"Have what" well if you let me finish my damn sentence you would know!
I obviously didn't say that I just thought it. Why can he be more chill?

"Have what Annie"

I cross my hands over my chest rolling my eyes, does he not realise it's not that easy for me either? I'm getting Skinner than I already was and I look stupid!

Not bragging but I have pretty average good sized boobs, and it doesn't look right with my skinny body. Yes! Now I'm getting insecure and it's annoying. " I HAVE EATING DISORDER ARE YOU HAPPY!?" I yell.

His eyes widen at me he stays sitting down Propaly trying to figure out how he didn't notice. I roll my eyes again, grabbing my phone from my desk.

I open the door about to walk out, I know dramatic much but eh I love it.
Haydens hands slams it shut as he pushes me into the door, it wasent one of those hard ones where you can break you back in It was more gentle.

"Why didnt you tell me? More importantly why didn't I notice!" He whispers the last part to himself, I didn't really want him to blame himself or something.

I mean I don't even know how I got it...lies. it was a couple of days after him and Lauren kissed, but I didnt want to make him feel guilty! Plus I'm trying to eat, even it I throw it up.

"Its fine, it's not your fault" I say, putting my hands around his neck. I stare at him trying to make him look at me, "Hayden it isn't your fault".

"When?" He says looking up at me as he puts one of his hands next to my head on the door and one on my waist. What? When?what does he mean.

"What?" I say, my mind blowing up with confusion. Like literally can you please be clear? I don't like riddles!
He replies, "when did you realise.."

My mouth forms into an 'O' shape, I sigh look down at the ground. "Do you remember when I had nutella, and I went to the toielt. I knew there and Johnny came and helped me".

His hands round my waist tightend, his brown eyes burning "johnny?" I nod my head narrowing my eyes at him. "Johnny helped you? Why didn't you tell me?".

I roll my eyes and put my finger on his chest, trailing it down His chest. I can feel his abs through his black shirt, I can feel his heart beating faster.

Thank God you can't feel mine.

"Someone jealous? Don't worry babe you don't have to be...Johnnys just my bestfreind. Your my boyfriend" I whisper, feeling like his kneeling down at me.

I shut my eyes and pull him down breaking the space between me and him. Our lips find each others, his lips were so soft.

Our lips move in sync, like it was meant to be there with him.

And I liked the sound of that.

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HEHEHEHEHEH A HANNIE KISS!!

It wasent there first kiss by the way😂 anyway IM DYING I HAVE MATHS TEST ON THURSDAY AND UGH-

I'm failing in life💔

AND OH MY GOD WE HIT 4K THANK U ALL SO MUCH ILYSM

Any who bye guys