Instagram drama

"nothing ever last long, and i'm definitely not going to"

J O H N N Y

"for god sake! leave me alone, i want to be alone, i don't need you're friendship." Mackenzie yells at us, me and the guys and her are sitting in a restaurant right now trying to 'make' things better but surprisingly it was the exact opposite. instead shes yelling and shouting making people notice us and giving us weird glances, even some paparazzi who didn't notice us before have now whipped out their cameras. "i don't need you guys anymore, i'm...happy this way".

"but your not!" Lauren shouts at her, ahhh how great everyone's shouting now. "your so ungrateful, we tried to help you out but you wouldn't let  us. we tried so many things, but you always blocked us out as if we were the ones who hurt you! do you know whats worse you",before she can say what she was about to say i stop her and shut her mouth with my hands.

"calm down, just shush"

kenzie starts laughing, but instantly stopped as a painful expression covers her face, "i-uh-ow" she groans grabbing on to her head, as she runs away to the toilets. realizing whats happening, i run right after her.

oh god, not again.

M A C K E N Z I E 

Its just pain, that's all i feel. 

my head has been banging for the last twenty minutes, it cant happen again, it cant. I only got out the hospital last night, oh sorry you didn't see that one? i didn't feel like sharing it right now, i'm sorry maybe later. "why me, why is it always me!" i scream out in frustration. flushing the toilet full of blood. i wash my hands and face. walking out i see johnny standing staring impatiently at the door. "what are you doing?".

As if he just noticed hes alive, he looks up at me quickly, "are you okay?!" hes voice filled up with worry hes eyes scanning me for an answer which i did not have, i nod my head and just walked away from his intense stare.

he didn't follow, which i'm happy and sad about, i know pathetic. 

what did i expect though, i'm the one pushing them all away, which has worked all of them hate me now they goon with their lives like i was never there. like i was just a small spot on their shoulder that they flecked off easily. everyone is happy, i mean like them, their fans and stuff.

the paparazzi still don't know what HE did otherwise everyone would petty me and it would be all over the world, my fans aren't being the best either some are worried but most are just annoyed i haven't been on there for a while, which ill post something today and tell them things because they will see the video of the group arguing moments ago and go all physco at all the fandom's and things. i open the taxi car door, get in and sigh heavily, "ilikepizzaalot road please". he nods his head and drives off.

"your mackenzie ziegler right?" the guy says making me look up at him, i force a smile back at him, he looks around twenty with his brown curls on top of his head, his blue eyes shining with curiosity. i nod my head at him mumbling a small yes, after what happend im not the most comfortable round men which i know is bad, they arent all evil, just my dad. your comfortable around johnny though. shut up not time for you.  sorry maybe later ya? who else is going to put common since in your dumbb brain.

its true though im only comfortable round him because i know hes not going to hurt me, he never would. i mean mentally yes, but physically? he'd never touch me like that. hes green eyes would always shout i love you to me, i hated that, every time i looked in at them they just made me feel so save..so alive. and i didn't want to feel that, i wanted to feel dead. being dead is so easy, all you have to do is just be  a ghost or go to hell or heaven, i mean hell isn't easy, but real life sucks, there's always so much pain. unwanted pain to be specific. maybe you cause the pain, or someone else but either way it hurts...and alot.