My Life in High School...

Ricardo

Ricardo.... the one who was there for me as a friend, is now my boyfriend! Ok so u know when you first become a couple you have to go through the awkward stage? Well ya that's exactly where we were at the next day at school. I was so excited to see my new boyfriend I practically flew out of my house. When I got to the school I immediately began searching for him... and when I found him everything was right in the world... until my nerves once again decided to ruin a good thing. He grabbed my hand and took me to the stairwell and there we sat, held hands and talked. I was so nervous alone with him.. I didn't want to mess this up. Then Olivia just happened to walk through that stairwell. We immediately moved away from each other we "tried" to act casual but she seemed suspicious. Finally she left... but it was still awkward. Then we went to class... I was of course sad... I missed him already.  Lunch began and he's the first person I ran to look for. We went to anime club and pretended to just be friends. Though I was pretty sure after the Olivia incident that morning they all knew. So we continued to be together at school trying to keep it a secret but at the same time hating it and sneaking around. After school most days Ricardo and I went to the park. Barnum park which was across the street from my house. There we had a spot right in the middle, it looked over the gorgeous pond and the city lights. There we'd lay down on the small patch of gras and talk, listen to music so on. One day while we were walking back Ricardo said something. He stopped me and looked me in the eye and said " I really want to kiss you right now." Oh my god I thought. Before you go thinking that's normal well Ricardo is not one to just say something like that so I was very surprised. Anyway so I answered very nervously, "Well we can but just warning you um I've only ever kissed one person so I'm probably not that good at it..." " That's ok I haven't kissed anyone before," he replied. I pause for a moment. And thought, wow he's 18, a senior in high school and he's never kissed anyone! "Well you've had girlfriends before right?" I asked still astonished. "Nope you're the first," he said. Oh my god how special am I, I thought. I was his first girlfriend and he wants me to be his first kiss!!! Well we didn't kiss... we went over to my house and he helped me with my homework. Well we were in my room and my door was shut. And considering the homework he was trying to help me with (math ugh) I was procrastinating and trying to distract him from helping me. Didn't work. When it was time for him to go home I went with my mom to drop him off. And I wanted to kiss him but it didn't happen. I felt bad for not doing it but... it just didn't feel right at the time. Anyway then I went home and went to sleep hoping to see him again in my dreams.