Between four walls and a door,
I'm sitting here all by my own,
The lights are on,
But it's never been darker,
It's a place,
Where you can't hear a sound,
But trust me,
It's never been so loud,
The voices in my head,
Are all I seem to hear,
Telling me to give up,
I feel so weak,
I try to remind myself,
Of all the times I've been strong,
But believe me or not,
I just can't hold on,
I bite my lips,
As if it will hold in my screams,
Tears gather in my eyes,
As everything turns into blur,
I know what's coming,
Is something I can't bare,
I'm alone so I let go,
Of all my tears and let them flow,
I look at my hands as they turn into white,
I could feel them as cold as ice,
They shake and I cannot control them,
They sweat and I cannot dry them,
I cry,
I sob,
I scream,
I'm scared,
My breathing becomes faster,
I gasp for air,
But there's nothing,
I start sucking it into my lungs,
Harder and harder,
My chest hurts like never before,
But I know that it will end like before,
Five minutes,
Ten minutes,
I'm still there,
Thirty minutes later,
I'm still gasping for air,
I want to let go,
I want to give up,
But I remind myself,
It will be over soon,
Can I stay with you?
My panic attack asks,
I scream a no,
I don't wanna be with you,
An hour later,
And I'm still shaking,
All by my own,
Between four walls and a door.
