I wake everyday,
With a different mood,
Sometimes I'm happy,
other times I'm rude,
I'm full of hope,
I'm full of life,
I feel worthy,
I feel alive,
But at other times I wanna cry,
And at times I wanna die,
I don't know what is it,
As I have never seen a therapist,
Maybe I'm bipolar,
Or maybe I'm depressed,
I try to ignore,
I try to resist,
But all my thoughts keep telling me that I'm depressed,
Whatever it is,
It has got me so pissed,
Trust me when I say,
It's so damn tiring,
I can't cope with it anymore,
Yet I still keep trying,
A day or two,
I feel good again,
A few hours later,
I'm drowning in pain,
I want to leave,
I want to end it,
But I know I should wait,
I ain't taking the right decisions,
I try to calm myself,
Over and over again,
Two days,
Three days,
And I'm still the same,
My tears start to flow,
And I really wanna let go,
But I only hold on tighter,
Ask me for the reason,
And I'll tell you that,
I don't actually know.
