Her Double

CHAPTER 10

*ring*ring*ring. Jell lazily moved reaching her phone on the desk near her bed sleepily answered her phone.

" Uh? "

This is dad. Check your e-mail.

"Uh dad. Uh later later. Where's mom?"

She's on the corner. Sentiments. Check it ASAP.

"tsk. Uh. You don't know how bad my sleep is. Oh bye. Love you. Hm."

They hang up and she half awake check her e-mails. What ? Dr. Chen is the sender. She slowly get up on on her bed and lean her back on the head board crouching her blanket. Clicking the link she dropped her mouth open. It was Jhy. Video of Jhy.

"why would Dr. Chen send this -"

Jhy smiled on the video. Her carefree smile that will make you feel closer to her. She weakly wave her hand sighing as she waits for the camera to set up right since everything was moving on the screen.

"done. You can now speak Jhy. Look at the camera. I'll take my leave then. Call me when you're done"

"Thank you doctor for this favor."

I heard it right. Doctor Chen was speaking at the back of the camera. Jhy look at the door and when she was sure that it was slammed, she get her eyes on the lens again.

"Hey Jell, I ask doctor Chen since mom will probably.. uh you know her. She cried on everything. Tsk. Uh, it was weird for me to this. I know I know...

She softly chuckled pausing. Probably, she keep thinking words to continue her video. I miss her. I smiled to myself as I remember how nice it is to have her as my twin.

" Hmm.. to cut it short, i passed out again. My heartbeat literally stopped again, I got leukemia and myocardium defect at the same time. To think it over and over makes me feel creepy, and helpless but then again I remember my 10 seconds younger sister. You know I love you right?"

I catch my breath since my chest started to be tight and my heart beat feels pulping out. Trying to steady myself I exhaled deeply. What are you saying Jhy?

" So I don't know if next time doctor Chen can bring me back again.. the truth Jell is I'm not afraid to die. I wanted to badly. For Pete's sake, I feel exhausted too. I'm worn out.. when I don't feel any better..day by day, I close and open my eyes w/ four thick walls around.."

I cannot contain myself anymore. I let my tears pour badly. Why is she saying this? She don't know how crap I love her! I will not do this fiancee thing if I don't care. For pete's sake. Me too, I fight w/ her, emotionally, mentally. Yet she dare to spout nonsense.

"..but Jell, what I'm afraid for is.. to be alone. I'm scared to drift and slowly sleep in the darkness.. alone.. it was selfish but sometimes I want to take someone w/ me. I'm bad right ?.. "

She wipe her tears and I can't help but to sobbed bitterly. Why do I feel like I wanted to accompany her? I want to assure her I'm here. I freaking wanted to hug and pamper her. Heaven knows, what's inside my thought, my innermost. Crap it all. I don't want to lost her.

".. so Jell, I'm sorry. Before being greedy, can I ask you one last favor? I- I wanted to pass away peacefully.. can you get the flash drive under the foam of my bed and hand it to Junmyeon ? I don't feel like lasting for long.. hmm.. I wanted to rest now Jell. I'm tired.. you always take care. "

Wha- What the heck ? That's all? All done ? I tried to check again. My gash ! What is she saying ?! It drives me crazy that I tried to call Jhy but crap it all. Her phone is turned off. I dial dad's and screw it that it took long before he pick it up. For goodness sake.