Why Me?

Chapter 16-Do I Love Him?

I made my way back up to my room. What did I do? Oh my god, how could I have given him a second chance? 

Because you like, maybe even love, him.

Shut up voice inside my head, I do not love Taylor.

Then how come you're giving him a second chance? Explain that to me.

I'm going crazy, I do not need to explain things to a voice inside my head that isn't even real. 

You are crazy, crazy for Taylor. 

Oh my gosh. I put my Beats over my head and turned on Never Close Our Eyes by Adam Lambert, turning up the volume.

When I got back to my room, I felt like I needed to get unwanted energy out, so there was no way in hell I was going to just be able to sit in a hotel room by myself. So I wrote a note to Jacob and Mahogany saying where I was going, and grabbed my longboard.

Leaving the note on my bed, I left, taking the stairs again. This way, I would have less of a chance to run into everyone.

Once I got to the lobby, I stepped on my board and pushed myself to the door to get outside. I still had my headphones on, so I couldn't hear Nick, the doorman, scolding me, but I could see him shaking his head and wagging his finger in my direction.

I ignored him and got outside. Not really knowing where I was going, I just pushed my foot off on the sidewalk and flew down the street. 

I skated for a while, when I got to a beach. I stepped off my longboard and took off my boots and socks. I rolled my leggings up and started walking in the sand. 

I dropped my things on the ground and sat down on my longboard, just looking out in the water. It was still pretty early, so not alot of people where here yet.

I was looking around, when I saw the pier, and I realized I subconsciously came back to where Taylor and I had our date last night. 

Sighing, I stood up and put my shoes and socks back on. I picked up my board and made my way to the pier. 

I stepped on my longboard and weaved my way through everyone. I ended up and the end of the pier and stopped. I leaned my board against the railing and leaned on my arms.

I was just staring in the distance, when I felt a presence next to me.

"I figured you'd come here." I heard Jacob say.

"I didn't mean to, I just sorta ended up here." I said, not looking at him.

"Are you ok. like. Really ok, Dani." He asked.

"To be honest, no. But I did something and I don't know if I made the right choice or not." I admitted.

"Well, what did you do?" Jacob asked, looking at me.

"I told Taylor I would give him a second chance. I don't know why, but he said he had a reasonable explanation for what I saw and begged me until I caved and said yes." I told him.

He sighed, not saying anything for a while.

"Do you think you made the right decision?" He finally said.

"That's the thing, I don't know. Part of me wants nothing to do with him after what he did. But part of me wants to listen to him and wants to think what I saw wasn't what happened." I put my head in my arms and Jacob rubbed my back.

"Hey, I have MAGCon in a little, so lets say we head back to the hotel and get ready." He suggested.

"Ok, but I don't want to go today. I think I'm just going to stay in my room." I said.