Loneliness is a Bitch

hawyee

I haven't updated in a hot sec so here's this

I feel like everyone lowkey hates me for some reason like they all sort of just brush me off as just being there and breathing,, everyone is sort of indifferent about my existence ya know

like, no one feels that happiness I feel when someone I like or care about comes up to me and my day is brightened or just overall great because of that one person. I feel like I'm no one's person that makes them feel that way if you know what I mean.

and even if I am no one's person, how can I change that? how can I change myself so that I can make other people's day better? What if they find me annoying in some way and I'm the total opposite of what I want to be for them. That I'm interfering with their life and are wasting their time with me just talking to them. What the hell do I do. I feel powerless, like I can't do something that people can do effortlessly to me. Some people can just breathe and my heart is overwhelmed with happiness.

goddamn I'm pathetic

I should probably go to sleep before I start thinking more dangerous thoughts,,

so yeah that's that, sorry if that made no sense what so ever or made you a bit depressed. I can't really control how I feel half of the time and the only way to make me feel better is to write it out.

anyways, goodnight my fellow bad bitches, I hope y'all have a great day today or tomorrow, whenever your reading this, and I love you

I'm sorry for making you sad
~brick