Michael's Obsession With Ryan!

Chapter 19

Michael's point of view

When I got home I went straight to bed. I was heartbroken that Ryan didn't love me back. I wanted him to. I was such a mess. I shouldn't have told him how I felt. I shouldn't have kissed him because of all that I ruined the best friendship that was going on in my life. I'll never find true love because the only person I want is Ryan. No one else.

Hot wet tears ran down my face. I laid down in my bed and closed my eyes. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Starting tomorrow I'm gonna go to Ryan and apologize, I just hope he forgives me.

At some point I fall asleep. When I wake up I drag myself out of bed and slowly get dressed. My day is worse than ever. I get dressed and grab my car keys. Lastly, I grab my phone of the night stand. I turn my phone on and I see that Jim has sent me text. I wonder what this is about I say to myself. I click on the message and read it.

I could feel the tears coming. Ryan and Jim are leaving forever. I wanted to make it up to Ryan but that will never happen now since he's leaving with Jim. Tears rush down my face. I'm crying so much now to the point where I just don't want to be in this world anymore. I hate myself so much. It's all my fault Ryan left.

After I finished crying I left my apartment and got into my car. I drove to work. I couldn't believe that I was never going to see Ryan again. I Don't know how I'm going to get through this.

When I get to work. I walk into the building and enter the workplace. I block everyone out, walk into my office, I close the door and lock it. I didn't want to be around anyone at the moment. I just wanted to be by myself. I closed the blinds and went over the desk and sat down.

I laid my head down on the desk and cried silently to myself.

A few moments later I heard a  knock on my door. I quickly wiped my eyes. " Who is it?", I called out.

" It's me Dwight".

I stood up and walked over to the door and opened it. I let Dwight inside, I close the door and lock it once again. I look at Dwight and I know he knows I have been crying. I can't hide the fact.

" Hey", I say.

" You okay, Michael?", He asks.

" No."

" What happened?", he asked.

" Jim and Ryan they ran away together and it's all my fault".

" What? Jim's gone just like that?", he asked.

" Yeah, did you two break up or something?"

Dwight nodded and said" Yeah, I ended our relationship".

" Why?", I asked.

" I'd rather not talk about it about".

I nodded and said" Please don't leave me like they did. Your my only friend that I have left".

"I promise", Dwight answered.

" Thank you. Your my best friend Dwight. You know that right. I'm sorry for what I said before. I was just trying to look cool in front of Ryan", I reply.

" It's okay Michael. Your my best friend to", Dwight answers.

I smile at Dwight and I embrace in hug and he hugs me back.

I break the hug and ask" wanna come over after work today and watch a movie with me".

" Yeah I would like that very much Michael".

We smile at each other. We talk for a little bit, afterwards Dwight leaves my office and returns to his desk. I look at him and say,"I'm so glad to have a friend like you".

I look away, I get to work, and I start making sale calls. I can get through this. I don't need Ryan in my life to be happy. I'll just find a new Ryan. And until that day comes I'll be waiting.