Lust GXG

Confrontation

I bought both of us pasta setting everything on the table. While I was waiting for her I texted back August to let her know I'd meet her in the library later today. The more I spend with August the more I learn that we're similar. I'm glad to have met her.

Nala finally arrives sitting down. "I hope you like the pasta." She thanked me while we both ate. "Are you ok? You haven't said much since the carnival and this morning you seemed out of it." She nodded her head. "Everything's fine." Raising my eyebrows, "Clearly it's eating you up inside. I don't mean to push you but you're not the fun mysterious girl I met before the fair. I want that girl back." I knew what I was saying was bold but I was tired of sugar coating everything. It was annoying seeing your friend in a funk day after day. "Well the fun mysterious girl isn't coming back anytime soon. She's too depressed." "She didn't seem too depressed last night whispering something to me." Nala looked at me with her eyes widened. Finally something caught her attention as those beautiful hazel eyes stare into mine. Her eyes were of a broken little girl that needed a warm hug. I climbed over to sit beside her pulling her into an embrace. She sobbed lightly at first then the tears came pouring. "Let it all out honey. You can't keep bottling your feelings forever." She continued to sob until she couldn't anymore. Nala wiped her face continuing to eat the pasta with me. "What did I say to you?" Taking a deep breath, "I think you already know. There's nothing to be ashamed of." I continued to eat as much of the pasta as I could before my next class. "Please take care of yourself Nala. Everyone in the house are like sisters now. Trust in them." She nodded her head. "What time will you be home today? I do want to talk about it with you." I looked through my schedule and saw that I usually stay at the library for an hour. "Around 9 o'clock. Is that too late for you?" "No, do what you need to do." She brought her lunch and her belongings with her. I stuffed the remainder of the pasta in my mouth chewing as fast as I could while running to my next class.

This program is more intense than I thought. Maybe next year will be easier. I told myself. Hours later I met August in the library. We placed our books down on a table nearest to the bookshelf she was standing. "What are you doing?" August was excited, "Check out a book our professor wrote! Maybe it has some answers to our homework questions." Interested I took a look. "I read the part where the professor mentioned the different types of kisses and what it usually tells another person. You know, to let the patients know their boundaries." Flipping through the pages, "What are the different types of kisses?" She whispered, "Why don't I show you?" I was interested. August leaned in close kissing me gently. Our lips brushed against each others. "That was a friendly kiss." We kissed again except it was more intense. I licked her lips outlining it with my tongue. Her tongue met mine our lips pushed harder against each other. I stood closer to her, she ran her fingers through my hair also pushing my face into hers, making our kiss more intense. I broke the kiss remembering where we are. "Woah. That was intense." August blushed. "Did you like that?" I wanted more but I also needed to study. "I did. We should try that again sometime." I winked at her as we both head to our table continuing our assignments.

It was hard to focus on our assignments. I did the best I could. She laid her hand on mine, "Do you want to go somewhere?" I bit my lip packing my belongings. Part of me wanted to follow her down the rabbit hole. I listened to the part of me that wasn't interested in her. I haven't known Nala that long or any girls in our sorority for that matter yet my mind couldn't stop thinking of her. "I'm sorry. I'm just not interested."  August raised her brows in confusion. "You didn't pull back when we kissed a second ago." I could feel my face grow warm and my tongue stumbling to say something other than what I meant. "I know. It wasn't you... I have a crush on someone else. That's why."  She giggled. "That's so cute! Do I know who it is?"  "Maybe." "Hmm... let me guess. Dana from class?" "Nope." August thought long and hard guessing every girl in our class. I kind of felt offended. "It's no one from our class." I saw a light bulb went off in her head. "It's someone from the sorority!" "Shhh! Don't shout it out to the world." She mimicked me jokingly mouthing the word "sorry." I started shuffling my papers hoping no one had heard. "Can you please only keep it between us? I don't want anyone to freak out. Homosexuality is not exactly 'approved' in society." In my peripheral vision I saw her staring at me. I rested my head on my hand admiring her for admiring me back. She said, "Like anyone's sexuality needs a stamp of approval. You like who you like." "You and I know that but the rest of the world doesn't." "I guess we're going to have to show them. Won't we?" I had a big grin on my face. After she said that it motivated me to study harder. No one listens to people with no credibility. 

We spent about an hour or two studying at the library. August completing half the homework while I did the other half switching off our papers. Before I started my program I wasn't sure what to expect. It turns out there's more to read with no time to actually memorize anything. I turned my head towards the nearest clock seeing that it read ten o'clock. A wave of panic hit me feeling bad that I promised Nala I'd be there for her an hour ago. I pack my backpack as swiftly as I can running out the door. "Wait for me!" August shouted. Why am I like this? Being the nice person that I am I called out to her motioning her to hurry up. Nala had already been in a negative cloud lately. I did not want to be the reason she continues to be down in the dump. 

It was a cold night. The wind blowing through our long locks. August came up with the idea that we should quiz each other preparing for our quiz tomorrow. That's exactly what we did until we reached home. "Off topic. Are you going to tell your crush about your feelings for her?" My body shivering while trying to jog home. "When the time is right. I've never dated anyone from the same gender before. I don't want to mess it up."  August jogs along beside me nudging my side. "You are too adorable!" "What about you? Have you dated another woman before?" "Yes. It wasn't exactly the best relationship. That's besides the point. It's the same idea as dating a man except you're more vulnerable." I don't know if I liked that. "Why am I more vulnerable with a woman?" August slowed down her jogging to catch her breath. I offered her some water from my backpack. She gulped it down before telling me. "Men are more forgetful. They care less. Women remember everything but their care and love runs deeper than the love of a man. Think of it this way. If you saw me getting raped by a man, would you help me? Most men would ignore the situation because they 'don't want to get involved.' A woman most likely will help because they know how it already feels being prayed on by a man." I never would have expected a response like that from August. That was powerful.