Darker: Sequel to Harder To Breathe

The Truth

*Adam's pov

"Alright, let's go. No more flirting with her" I said eyeing Jesse. "Breath Adam, it's important" she whispered kissing my cheek. I smiled and watched her head toward Molly and the guys. "You really love her. Like Jaz level love" he said watching me. "I'm not sure about that, but yes I love her, and it scares me that I could fall for her so easily and so quickly after Jaz" I admitted. "Yea well Jaz doesn't play fair. She picked a girl that fit all your criteria, someone you couldn't help but fall for with ease." He reminded me. "You're right" I said and watched her laugh at something Matt said. Jesse watched too and then his eyes got wide, "she's your hazel eyes" he said finally figuring it out. "Yea" I said smiling. "Adam those lyrics..." "Yes I know, I was completely honest and I hate myself" I said. Jesse stared at me, "that's good, being honest is important." I nodded and looked up to see Bella staring. "Daddy I'm hungry!" Molly yelled pulling my ought a away from Bella. "Right come on" he said. "Night guys" I said slipping my arm around Bella and taking Molly's hand. "Hey daddy Uncle Sam said I could stay over tonight and play with Vesper!" She said excitedly. I turned to Sam, "we'll get her when you get back" he said smiling. "You guys could use a night and you took Vesper last weekend, it's only fair" he said. "Thanks" I said and Bella smirked.

Dinner was relaxing just me and my girls. "So dress shopping went well?" I asked. "Very well" she said, "we both found dresses." "I can't wait to see them" I said. "So we have a date, place, and dresses" "and I placed the order for the flowers, center pieces, and cake" she smiled. "We're in good shape" I smirked. "How about the honeymoon?" I asked. "Honeymoon? What's that?" Molly asked. "It's a vacation for people who just got married" I explained vaguely. "Ohh where are we going?" She asked. I laughed, "sweetie you're going to be staying with your uncles. They're gonna take turns staying at home with you" Bella explained. "I don't get to go?" She asked sadly. "Not this time baby girl, we'll go away again. How about Disneyland?" I asked. She sighed, "fine." Bella giggled, "perfect! That means you'll need a few new princess outfits" she smirked and Molly got excited and I smiled, Bella is so good with her. We finished up and headed home to pack Molly a bag. Molly instantly ran to her room and I followed to help.

*Bella's pov

"Go on I'll call Sam and Steph" I said watching them race upstairs. "Hey Steph we just got back" "perfect, sending Sam out the door" she laughed. "Thank you so much for taking her. She was so excited when Sam said it was okay. We couldn't get through dinner fast enough" I laughed. "I figured, those two can't get enough of each other" she laughed. "Is that auntie? Hi auntie!" Molly yelled coming down the stairs with Adam zipping her bag behind her. "Yes. Molly says hi" I said, "hi sweetie!" Steph said, "auntie says hi" I laughed. "Well thank you again" I said, "anytime Hun" she said and we hung up. The bell rang and Adam got it, "promise to be good okay, make sure you listen to auntie and uncle okay" I said. She nodded and hugged me, "I promise" she said and I gave her a kiss. Adam hugged her and gave her a kiss. "Be good for Sam and Steph okay" he said. "I already promised mommy" she said and kissed him again. I smiled and we watched her leave. "Thanks Sam!" I called. "Anytime Bella!" He called and Adam shut and locked the door. I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck, "the night to ourselves, what are we going to do?" I asked. "I have a few ideas" he smirked and poked my sides making me jump. I laughed and ran upstairs feeling him close behind me. I ran into our room and felt his strong arms wrap tightly around me. "I love you" he whispered holding me close. "I love you too" I said. "Hey I wanna be honest for a minute, before uh I lose my nerve" he said and pulled away. Oh god he's calling off the wedding! He doesn't really love me. "I want you to understand the first two songs we recorded. It's kind of important." He said and bit his lip. He's not calling everything off, phew. "Maps, well I was in a really dark place when I wrote maps. I was feeling lost and angry and well, why don't you listen" he sat on the bed and played the recording on his phone. I listened to the words carefully.

"Oh. My. God. It's all about Jaz" I said covering my mouth. "That's some pretty dark stuff Adam" I said sitting next to him. "Yea, well I was angry" he said softly. "I know but you couldn't have stopped it. Cancer can't be stopped because you want it too. She refused treatment" I said rubbing his back. He took a deep breath, "Bella, she killed herself." His bluntness hit me hard. "What?" I asked. "We were at the party and after a while of having fun, she took a bottle outside and broke it. She cut her wrists. I watched her bleed out on the sidewalk. The ambulance took her and she died at the hospital" he explained. "That night and a few nights after I wrote Maps. I was pissed she ran away from us and gave up on everything good." He finished. I touched his cheek and kissed him. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know" I said sadly. "I know and I shouldn't have hid it from you but it hurt too much and I ought not talking about it would make it less true. I had to believe the cancer took her" he said. "It's okay" I said. "This next one, well I'm not gonna explain much, just listen" he said and he cued up a song.

*Adam's pov

"I woke up sweating from a dream, with a different kind of feeling. All day long my heart was beating, searching for the meaning." Those words came so easily that night, I knew my whole heart was in it. "Hazel eyes, I was so colorblind we were just wasting time. For my whole life, we never crossed the line, only friends in my mind, but now I realize, it was always you. Can't believe I could not see it all this time, all this time it was always you. Now I know why my heart was never satisfied, satisfied. It was always you, you. No more guessing who, looking back now I know it was always you, always you." I watched as she pieced it together. Her eyes widened as she figured it out. "Adam" "listen" I said as my voice started the next verse, "all my hidden desires finally came alive. No I never told lies to you so why would I start tonight? Hazel eyes, I was so colorblind we were just wasting time. For my whole life, we never crossed the line, only friends in my mind, but now I realize, it was always you. Can't believe I could not see it all this time, all this time it was always you. Now I know why my heart was never satisfied, satisfied. It was always you, you. No more guessing who, looking back now I know it was always you, always you." I watched her and she stood up walking to the balcony, "woke up sweating from a dream with a different kind of feeling. It was always you. Even if I could not see it all this time, all this time it was always you. Now I know why my heart was never satisfied, satisfied. I was always you, you. No more guessing who, looking back now I know it was always you it was always you. It was always you."

I stopped the song and went to her. "Bella?" I said softly. "How could you?" She cried. "What?" "How could you write that about me?" She asked and I couldn't tell if she was mad or not. "Because it's true Bella. And you'll never know how badly that hurt to wake up one night and realize I'm in love with the nanny! But I do" I said softly in her ear. She cried softly, "those lyrics, makes it seem like Jaz was nothing to you" she managed. "Jaz was everything to me, but after meeting you I..." "Don't say it" she begged. "I loved you both, and I think Jaz knew it. I mean she set this up. She knew I would fall for you because you are everything I desire and she did it on purpose. I didn't stand a chance" I said. "I wrote this song because it's the truth. I draw on my experiences and others to write you know that, I know you do. I had to write this" I said. "Please don't be mad" I begged. She sighed and shook her head, "I don't know what I am" she whispered. "Shit I screwed up the night" I mumbled. She turned and wiped her eyes, "no, you didn't. I'm so glad you were honest" she said. "That's not what I mean" I said staring, wiping her eyes. "I know what you mean" she said. She kissed me, "and you being honest with me made me love you even more, even if I'm confused about how I feel about that song" she said. I kissed her back pulling her as close as she could get. "Come on let's make the most of this night alone" she whispered against my lips and pulled me back into the bedroom. "I love you" I whispered. "I love you too" she said and pulled me over her.