Years That Shift

Fights

I herd the tumblers of the lock clicking and looked up as Alex walked in the door avoiding eye contact. "Daddy!" Tate yelled jumping up and running towards him. He picked him up , swinging him around as the small child laughed.  His little feet touched the ground and hugged his leg. "Hey Tate go play with Wolf in the back yard or something" I told him he gave the cutest sigh and walked towards the back door. "What?" I walked over and wrapped my arms around his waist. "I missed you, two days is too long" "I missed you too, but a hug isn't going to fix this." "Can we talk while we hug so we won't get mad at each other?" "Sure." "I don't know what I did wrong" "years you promised you'd never bring that up" "I didn't you were talking about how my mom told everyone." "But you didn't have to go into detail." "I was pissed, you know I don't like you going to his parties because there's always some fucking type of drug. But then you brought Tate and got drunk, we both agreed never to let him see us like that."

"I wasn't thinking everyone other one of the guys has been yelling at the two of us that have family's for wanting to spend time with them." "You know they can be dicks, but you used to hang out with them when you're not on tour now I stole you and the time you do get to spend with them is cut. They're not going to be happy." "Still when my best friends are constantly bitching at you it does kinda stress you out." "See were both at fault and need to talk more.And if you touch my fucking ciggerettes again I'll rip you dick off." "I like em fiesty." "Oh shut up" "Maybe we can do this laying down if you get what im saying." "Ahhem small child." "We can make it quick."

"Fuck you!" I yelled pulling my shirt over my head. "Babe!" I grabbed a pack of cuggerettes from the top of the fridge and walked quickly out of the door. Whatever J don't care if Im in socks.I ripped the cover off the package and threw it on the ground lighting a stick. What's happening to us, its just one thing after another now. I tapped the grey ash off and felt a droplet of water fall on my face. I quickly walked to the play ground and sat under the top to keep me dry. I scrolled through until I found my favorite item on my phone. "When the  memory is a blank page. And the teeth and you mouth are all clinche. Your heart is a bag of rocks. Your souls is a pile of ashes on the side walk." Ricky sung over the strums of the guitar.I found this cover probably two years ago and everytime it makes me feel even a bit better.

I watched the rain come down so thick I could only make out  the blurred colors of  cat lights. Is this what marriage is really like? How people describe it as hell and say the regret it. I never want to be one of those people, but id sure as hell wait until Tate and this new child are old enough. Thanks asshole.

I was heavily contemplating on just spending the night out here. But I don't want to just disappear for two days like Alex did and were leaving in what 4 days. When only the sweet smell, humid air, and damp ground remained  I started on the walk back. Leaving the empty blue package on the street.I stepped in  and all of they toys were up with the TV off and it was dead silent. I walked in the kitchen and there was a plate on the table completly untouched except for the dogs eyes.Im not even hungry, I want to hug and punch Alex  he can't just pull shit because it works for him. I sat the plate on the floor and I swore the dog smiled.  I went upstairs and the bathroom was empty with a bit of water still draining from the bathtub. His room was empty too, but now tidied up. Lastly  I went to our room, he was passed out next to Alex with some movie playing.

I walked over and picked him taking him to his brown wooden bed and placing him under the covers. In out room I took off my makeup and brushed my teeth before I slid into the bed. I turned my back facing him and snuggled into the pillow. A few seconds later, He pulled me back quiet bit and rested his leg over one of mine. "I can't believe I did that" "Me eathier, but I guess were having another baby now" " I guess so.