》°☆The quiet one [NCT Jeno ff]☆°《

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~1 year later~

My life is a mess...I can't seem to have a normal life can't I?...after what I did nothing has gone well for me....I failed 5 exams that I needed to rewrite amd get the best grade as possible...luckily I did...but Yuta was gone...I asked Jaemin how he is...but he said he's super depressed and when he finds the person who sent him that picture he will end them... Also he cried everyday and hurt himself so bad that he had to go to the hospital....that's the last I heard of him...but I didn't visit him..never... I can't show my face in front of him...If I do he'll find out and I'm done for....also Jaemin has been acting weird...

But the main problem is...I shut myself up...I don't talk to anyone anymore....not even Y/N...I do miss our cuddling and gossip about school,laughing at how she usually falls over everyday and a teacher sees her....I don't know if it still happens...but what I do know...she likes Jaemin...but I don't think they should be together at all...they just don't match...and since I figured that out....I also figured that me and Yuta never were meant to be together... I made that stupid plan but got nothing from it.... Just depression and pain....I ruined a great relationship between two people who would die for eachother...but bcs of me that probably changed...

~~~~at the hospital,1 year later(Y/N's accident)~~~~

Who is this man and why is my heart beating so damn fast??...he looks so...perfect...like heaven made him and just sent him down on earth...
His round,black eyes with eyebrows that look like seagulls but they still make him look hot...his lips look so kissable-wait
I just met him....I can't do this...he maybe has a girlfriend or boyfriend....I honestly don't know...but he looks like he's made for me...I have a feeling that I'll need him in my life more than I think...

~~~a day before I left of(the Jeno and Jaemin thing)~~~

It was a normal day...I think...Y/N still has no clue who Mark,Jeno and Chenle are....it's too bad...Jeno looks like he really likes her and it's hurting him...but what hurts me is the fact what happened with Yuta and if it will happen with Mark as well...I'm really scared...but I need to confess to him...
Yes...my feelings are there and bigger than even... I don't think I liked Yuta as much as I do Mark...he just makes me feel so good and I get butterflies everytime I even see a small thing that reminds me of him...his giggles are what gives me life...and his love for Jeno is out of this world...I'm so glad I have Y/N in my life even if I ignored her for two years...I will tell her what happened...but not yet...I'm not ready...

But I am ready to face Mark and tell him how I feel... I can't make the same mistake like I did last time... Even if I get rejected...at least I got my feelings out

Hyuk:"Mark?...can I talk to you?...In private"
Mark:"uhm yeah sure"
I stand up and he follows me to my room

Mark:"what's up Haechan?"
Hyuk:"okay...please promise me you won't get mad and we can still be friends after this"
Mark:"Haechan?...are you okay?"
Hyuk:"just...say that you promise"
Mark:"yeah sure...I promise...what's wrong?"
Hyuk:"...what's wrong is that everytime I'm with you I want to kiss you!...I get butterflies at the smallest things involving you and I can't get over the fact that your smile and laugh make me forget every problem I ever had...I like you a lot Mark...I respect your decision and I understand that you don't want to be friends anymo-"

Softness...This is the best feeling I ever had...My problems are gone...I can feel my stomach turning and my heart beating so fast...
He kissed me...
My cheeks turn red as we separate from thw kiss...he looks into my eyes....
Mark:"Haechan...I like you a lot...I really do...but... I don't think we should do anything yet....This could ruin our friendship as well as with the others...I'm very sorry..."
My eyes get a little teary...I didn't expect him to like me back or even kiss me...but then say we can't be together....
Hyuk:"you're right...but I just don't know how I'll be able to act around you after today...."
Mark:"please...whatever you do...just don't stop hanging out with me,us...let's wait for some time...and see what happens"
I nod and wipe the tear rolling down my cheek

He places his hand on my cheek and caresses it,wipping my tears as well
Mark:"don't cry...I'm here for you...don't give up on me and I won't give up on you too...it's just to see if anything bad will happen so there won't be consequences that are too big"
I look into his eyes and he smiles...why is he so beautiful?...so i return the smile
Mark:"you're so beautiful...smile more..for me"
And I giggle....why is he so cute?
Hyuk:"don't stop giving me strength..."
Mark:"never planned on stopping"he kisses me again

Why can't we just be together!!!???I need him...as soon as possible

Mark:"let's go back down should we?"
I nod then go...

This is going to be so weird...we kissed but we can't be together yet...I guess I really do need to wait a little more...
I'll wait for you Mark Lee