I can't let you in

I didnt want too lose you to get her

Lydia's point of view
We where all sitting around Scott's kitchen table. Scott at one end, Isaac at the other, stiles on the right side of Scott, me on Scott's left, Aiden on my right, Kira across from him. Ethan was pacing in front of the fridge, Malia was digging in the cabinets for something to eat might I add was pissing me off how could she eat right now hell how could she not be crying. Malissa was standing behind Scott, and Sheriff doing the same to Stiles. I had told the pack about what void said to me, "unless you say goodbye to someone you love just as much as you love her" . I know Scott is contemplating it because he keeps looking at me like I could fix his whole world. I start to push and he starts to pull.

"Scott I can't do it"
"Lydia she's your best friend"
"Scott who is he going to take away stiles, Kira, you? I can't lose anyone else I don't want to. She's my best friend and I love her but I can't lose anyone like I'm losing her it's going to hurt me just as much if I lose someone else because they are "equal" in the amount that I love them."
"I can't lose the love of my life lyds please...I'm begging-"
"Lydia do it." Kira said blankly. Every eye went to her, she didn't care she played it off cool. "You can tell him it's me I can't even control what I am. I'm going to the skin walkers anyway so just give me to him what's he going to do that he hasn't already done to my family. This is all my mothers fault just let me fix it."

When she finished I walked over and sat on her lap giving her a big hug. Trying to hold back my tears I pulled away playing with her pigtails for a split second, before standing and taking two steps back. I then turned and tried to run out the front door I was stopped by man who was turned around. He then turned ally's dad. He embraced me in a hug and I sobbed. He picked me up bridal style and set me on the couch. He took my seat at the table and started to speak.

"You can't force her to give up one of you she has to do it herself. Void can get in her head easier than she can get into yours. She has to truly believe that she wants to give up one of you for Allison. I love my daughter and I want her back just as much as all of you do, but I'm not going to put Lydia in the situation that she feels like she had to give one of you up al-"

"I-i'll so it ." I say i almost thought I was silent but by the way they all looked at me I knew they heard me no matter how quite I was. "I can't promise that I will know who Is going to die or do whatever he had planned. But I'll do it. I love every single one of you in a way that is only specific too you. I don't know who I love just as much as I love ally. But I need her and if all of you are okay with it I will do it."

In unison they all said,"do it lyds." So I did, I started to pull and I was in someone mind.
"Lyds don't do it unless you really want too."
"Stiles I want too I need her."
"I love you lyds"
"Love you too"
I started to pull again, just like that I knew I was in his mind.
"Sooo, you chose to save her. Awwe isn't that just cute. Two hours the high school bring the whole pack."
I stopped pulling and told the pack where and when. Now it was time to start planning.
I knew who I was willing to give up. Scott would probably kill me, but in all honestly I didn't get to pick he did he would read my mind and take who I loved just as much as I loved ally. Everyone wanted me to give up peter even Malia. I get that they want me to give up someone no one really cares about but I can't control it at all. Before I knew it we where walking into the school. The second we walked in we where in a class room, it was snowing it never snows in California. I was holding on to stiles' arm he was getting weaker the more void was alive. Scott and Kira where a little a head of us when finally he showed his face. I whipped around ready to start the plan like planned. But something was off we where in the middle of nowhere, it was snowing and we where surrounded by oni.
"So you think I wouldn't show up with back up lyds?" Void was being really cocky.
"I told you not to call me that, and I was planning on it." I started to concentrate and with my mind I moved my voice like bullets into the oni's masks causing them all to shatter. They then disappeared and I was alone with void.
"I think its time Lydia. So who will it be? Let's see shall we."

He began digging. Memories flashed in my head. Causing me to cry and fall to my knees, I couldn't hold it in anymore I screamed as loud as I could and in a second I was back in the history class room stiles behind me holding my shoulders. Void began yelling from the hallway.
"Devine move? Devine move?! You really think you have any moves at all?! You can kill all the oni but me? ME? I'm a thousand years old!! You can't kill me!"
Kira stabbed him in the heart as Scott bit him on the arm. A fly one fly flew out of his mouth and he was dead.
"Did he kill anyone stiles? Did he take anyone? Is ally back? Please tell me no one died and ally is back. Please stiles please." I cried into his chest. He was making tiny circles into my back with his hand, I screamed not just to scream because someone was about to die. I ran out the front doors and saw Aiden laying in Ethan's lap holding his stomach. I turned around knowing he would be right behind me I held in my scream but I couldn't hold in the tears they came out like hot streams of blood. I gripped his shirt and kept hitting his chest I felt bad for a split second I thought he was going to take stiles. But I knew if I lost him I would lose my self. I walked over to Ethan, Aiden, and Derek. He embraced me in a hug and told me everything would be okay with a kiss on the top of my head. Ethan said his goodbyes to his brother and called his parents. It was now my turn, I sat on the wet concrete, lifted his head oh so softly and placed it in my lap.
"Your not leaving me. I won't let you your going to stay I will fix this. Please don't leave me I love you too much please..." I kept going on and on finally he cut me off.
"I did not mean enough and that's okay I love you so so much. And I want you to be truly happy..I'm dying in my first true loved arms and I'm okay. Lydia move on, have a happy life and for goodness sakes love who you want too love. I love you Lydia Lorraine Martin. Always and forever until forever ends...." and just like that he was gone. Stiles took me home. Deaton called ally was stable but would take awhile to wake up so I went home too sleep in my own bed. Stiles walked me in and asked where my mom was. I think she's at a conference somewhere in New York. I asked him to walk me to my room and he did right when he was about to leave I.
"Will you stay with me stiles please? I don't want be alone right now, and just I know you still weak but I need someone with me my moms gone ally's out of it and I just plea-"
"Of course lyd's why wouldn't I, ill go grab some covers and stuff."
"No just sleep with me."
I changed into a shirt that was Aidens and spandex the shirt fell just to cover my butt. Stiles took his jeans off and his shirt. He was sleeping next too the wall just like all the other times he slept here when I was scared or my mom was away, he crawled in and then me soon following he held his arms out so I could snuggle into his chest. He rubbed circles into my back and kissed me on my head a few times in between before finally saying.
"Good night lyd's I love you,"
"Night sti, I love you too"
I haven't called him that since I had a crush on him in second grade. I soon fell into a kind of sleep where your aware that your asleep but you just seem to think your awake and all you do is think
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A/n

So hi sorry I have not updated in a few days I have been busy with school and such🙄
How'd ya like it. What do you think will happen next I honestly have an idea I just wanna know what y'all think is gonna happen so let me know😁
-Brandi💛