I can't let you in

Remember

Lydia's point of view
Scott, stiles, Malia and I where all in the Jeep on our way to the vet office. Allison has woken up and she only remembers two of us. Scott of course she would remember him that's the love of her life, and her dad I mean shit they have gone through hell and back together. Deaton had said there might be a way for me to get her to remember, a spell or banshee "magic". I wish she remembered me but then again she might hate me because it's all my fault you know because they came to save me.

"Lydia it's not your fault, it's no ones fault okay." I forgot that Scott always had access to my head now. We talked about it this morning and he needed to always be able to know what I'm thinking just in case something happens again. I'll pray he only tuned in when he only needs something and not you just listen to my thoughts one not cool two I like to keep somethings private. "Yes only when I need something. I don't need to know everything. So what are we going to listen too......hey love birds I'm talking to you?!"

Stiles and Malia where all over each other in the back seat. I tried not to think of it too much because it upsets me. I just don't understand how he can go from holding me to making out with her non stop, and holding- okay I need to stop he's with her. He's hers' not anyone else's he's a seventeen year old kid he can make is own decisions.
"Um yea umm. There is a cd thing under your legs lyd's you can pick what we listen too." Stiles tapped my shoulder I guess to show that he was "paying attention".
"Nothing to punk thought please we are trying to bond." Malia added.

You've been dating for seven months and three days I think you don't really need to bond to much do you!
"Lydia breathe. She's pissing you off because you let her so just breathe"
Scott's in my head great
"Yes I am in your head because you have your hand in a ball and your leaving nail marks on the inside of your palm."
"Okay okay I'm sorry"

"So Of Monsters And Men it is." As soon as I put it in King and Lionheart came on. I love this song everyone knows it's normally what song I listen to on repeat when I paint. I could hear Stiles get out of Malias grip and just sit back. Scott grabbed my hand I guess to reassure me that it's gonna be okay. I haven't painted since my mom went on the "Business trip" six months ago.

We soon got to the vet office and everyone was there before us. I think Scott was just trying to prolong us seeing her that way I don't get hurt from the fact that she does not remember me. We all walked in together scott leading all of us. She jumped into his arms the second she saw him. Her dad came the second we all got the call. So he was standing in the corner, I walked to him he embraced me in a hug kissed my head. And whisper in my ear.
" She knows your her best friend because we told her and she's kinda starting to remember things you've done together but she thinks she's done them with her mom. We told her about everyone and she remembers them. She just won't remember you. So take my car he bow is in the back. Go to the woods have her shoot a few and then sit down and talk to her about everything that you all have done you need to find the one thing that made you all connect and you need to say it. That might bring her back to you." I pulled away and nodded. I grabbed his keys. Tapped her on the shoulder. And-
"Hi ally, I'm Lydia. Wanna go for a ride." I was more worried than anything.
"I'd love too your my best friend or supposed to be right?"
"Yep that's me. Go on to the car I will be out in a sec." I'm about to cry as I say it.

She walked out and I was starting to go after her but stiles grabbed my arm and pulled me around to face him. He pulled me into a hug right away and kissed my head. He let go and I walked away. That's what he would do when my dad left any time I would leave his house, leave school, go into my room to get something. He would do that I never knew why. It made me feel safe.

We where sitting in the car in silence. Just silence. It's actually kinda funny we normally are jumping around to a song that's playing or making up life story's for the people next to us at a red light. But no just silence. She leaned forward and turned on the radio, I thought what if maybe I just did some magic and made our song come on. So I did I said the spell and it blasted. My boy by Billie Eilish. She started singing and I joined in just like normal we looked at each other on every part we normally do. She sang her parts, and stopped for mine.
"MY BOY MY BOY DONT LOVE ME LIKE HE PROMISED!" We sang together as I pulled into the spot in the woods. We giggled our way out of the car I grabbed her bow out of the back seat, the target, and extra arrow heads just in case. And there is was again silence. I put the target on the tree walked back to her about fifty yards from the tree and set the bow on the ground.
"Start when your ready, just aim and fire. If you need me I'm here." I walked behind her and stood like an idiot. I kicked the ground a little, she drew back the string of the bow, let go and hit the bullseye first shoot. Damn she's good.

After a while she finally spoke.
"Umm when did we become best friends?" She asked as she shoot again hitting the same spot she had before.
"Fifth grade. stiles and Scott had been my best friends since second grade, and when you moved here I had became popular. I know a fifth grader popular all I need to have was a flip phone and justice clothes. But when you moved here during lunch Scott dared you to cut one of my pigtails and you did, but you felt bad and let me do it to you. We where inseparable from that moment forward."
"Lyd's I remember everything, the time when I got braces in seventh grade and got my hoodie stuck on my bracket and when my mom died and you held my hand at the funeral just so I wouldn't feel alone my family thought I was gay but you didn't care I didn't care. Your my person and I'm so sorry that I forgot you. But I remember everything and every one."
"I love you ally always and forever." And just like that we where back. As brownie and strawberry blondie. We drove back to my house blasting music and dancing, making up lives for strangers. We got to the house and walked in everyone was happy and running around like kids. Everything was safe for now.
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Hi again it's been awhile I know I'm sucky at posting. Butttt I try.

So this one is kinda all over the place but I'm trying. I hope y'all like it!
-Brandi💛