I can't let you in

Something in the Water

Lydia's point of view
"It's not that easy Bonnie. I can't just punch a kid I just met." I say turning to the kid that I have already controlled, stunned, screamed at, almost killed by the way.
"One I'm not a kid. Two it won't hurt. Three do it." Jeremy said as he smacked his face.

So I did. I hit him in the gut he didn't even move. He went to grab my arm, I blocked and kicked his knee. He went to grab my foot, turned and kicked him in the face. Went to pull my arms around my head, once he got them over my head I turned my hand and pulled him over my body and flung him on the ground. I sat on his chest in amusement he went to fling me off but I said a spell. "Sleep." I said bluntly with the flick of a wrist he was out.

I heard lots of clapping from a lot of people. Everyone one in my pack and in there's if that's what they wanna call it. Malia was clapping but soon cut it off to make out with stiles. He went with it. Yes please go ahead and make out with the girl you just said you don't wanna be with, Maybe he was talking about me I don't know anymore. I forgot about Jeremy being passed out on the ground. I walked over, woke him and helped him up.

"Nice job where did you learn those moves?" He asked brushing himself off.
"Ummmm I used to have a friend named Jordan he was a deputy. He tough me almost everything I know. The other stuff I picked up from watching wrestling with the boys." I started to think back to the time when it was that simple. Just normal things coming after us like Peter. When all I needed to know was that I need to learn how to fight.
"Was? Sorry if I'm being pushy you don't have to tell me I completely understand." I could tell he wasn't lying. He seemed like he has gone through some shit, or that's he's seen better days.
"He's a hell hound, we can't be in the same place. It's a bunch of bull shit to me. Honestly I wish he could have stayed it would have been easier when I lost...ummm hey guys! I'm gonna turn on the heater to the pool. Pool party tonight?"
"HELL YEAH!!!" Everyone yelled back.
"Sorry gotta run catch up later Jeremy?" I said in a rush to get the hell out of sight before I couldn't see or before I couldn't breathe.
"Yep-" I didn't let him finish I ran off up to my room.

I slammed the door behind me I was hyperventilating and crying all at the same time. Breathe Lydia. Breathe. There was a knock at the door. "I'm fine I'll be out in a minute." I hollered hopefully they would go away. Lydia in six counts out six counts. Remember everything they tough you god damn it. I'm so fucking stupid. The knock happened again this time as they knocked then walked in.

"Lyds are you okay." Stiles said running to my side after he closed the door.
"Sti make it go away. I can't breathe please. I can't...I can't....sti."
"I'm right here look at me. Look in my eyes yea that's it. You remember that pink flower dress you wore everyday in pre school. You would get so mad when Scott and I touched it. I remember one day you didn't wear it and we asked what happen and you said you spilled milk on it. We made you one out of paper, you still hated us but it's okay."
"Not helping, please...anything plea-"

I was cut off by his lips on mine. Everything went away. Just like it did when I kissed him. I grabbed his shirt I wanted more. He pulled me in closer I could feel when his hand moved just enough to make my shirt move. I still wanted more. We where sitting in the floor at the moment he was leaning into me. I started to push into him more, he scooted back a little and I got just enough room to sit on his lap. Still kissing. More, I need more. But I was cut off again by him pulling away. Come back please is all I thought.

"Blush. It wasn't pink it was blush." I said out of everything I could have said I said that.
"I know, you yelled at us all the time for it."

I got into the shower soon after that. I stood in the shower until the piping hot water turned ice cold. After I got out I put on a flannel skirt and a maroon shirt. I took extra time doing my hair, I curled it but I didn't do anything else with it. I did light makeup, lipstick, blush, light mascara. And that was it. I walked down stairs everyone was sitting round with there people. I looked around for stiles. He was of course sitting on the small couch with Malia on his lap. I can't do this shit anymore.
"Anyone want to go to the store with me. We are gonna have a cook out." I asked with little response. Probably due to the fact that everyone was talking and you couldn't here my small mouse voice. So I did what I do best.
"Hi Lydia here in everyone's head. Yeah anyone wanna go to the store with me? Cook out and swim for the night sound good?"